I have an announcement to make.

MY ROOM IS CLEANER!!!!!!!!!! That and I am really tired. I planned to be in bed by 9:30 but that didn't happen because I wanted it cleaner. I don't know why but I am having this horrible pain in my left hand radiating out from my pointer finger knuckle.

Did I mention that I HATE the inversion and wish it would leave so I can feel so much better? Well I do. I need to go to bed so that I can go to institute at 9 am and possibly talk to my friend.

Today was cool cause I saw another friend and he talked to me too! Nice. Today was a good day. I feel very good, for my walking class we used walking poles called exerstriders. These are awesome because they give you a total body workout which I like since I think walking is just BORING!!! But it is good because I don't have to kill my body to do it.

He Hears Me!!!

Okay, so after my rant yesterday about guys. . .and thank you for caring! My prayers were answered at least today. There is a guy from my ward in my teachings of Isaiah Institute class, what am I saying there are quite a few, but one in particular who I thought didn't know I exist, but he does know who I am. I talked to him during the first or second week of class, just basically as a hey, I know you, what is your major and your semester like? He is really nice, and he came in late today and took the seat to the left of me. When class let out he took his time putting away his stuff and then began to talk to me, it wasn't anything big, just how are you, where are you headed now type things. We chatted all the way up the hall and then said good bye. It was such a good feeling to have someone of the opposite sex talk to me like that and care what I was doing. It felt so good! It also doesn't hurt that he is good looking and a gentleman. . .nice nice. ;)

Would you like to take a survey?

001. real name ? N/A who REALLY puts their real name on a blog?
002. nickname ? J
003. single or taken ? single
004. zodiac sign ? gemini
005. male or female ? Lady
006. elementary ? Missouri, Imperial Estates, Mountain View
008. highschool? Box Elder
010. hair color ? dark blond. . .is there such a thing? I don't like being called dirty blond. . .I'm not!
011. long or short-- Short. . .but short what cause it really depends on what is short.
015. are you health freak ? only for my health
016. height ? 5'3"
017. do you have a crush on someone ? I haven't decided yet
018. do you like yourself ? only if I'm nice
019. piercings ? Ears
020. tattoos ? nope
021. righty or lefty ? righty. . .but sometimes in boarding I am goofy

FIRSTS :

022. first surgery ? Wisdom Teeth. . .
023. first piercing ? ears
024. first best friend ? a girl named Vanessa. . .from Missouri
025. first award ? Something from grade school I'm guessing
026. first sport you joined ? T-ball
027. first pet ? Mr. Phish
028. first vacation ? Most likely when we moved from California to Utah. . .I was like 3 months old or something.
029. first concert ? what kind of concert? Elementary Strings I was in 6th grade
030. first crush ? Danny Wentworth in Florida. . .I was a stupid first grader.

CURRENTLY :

049. eating ? not a thing
050. drinking ? water
052. i'm about to ? get ready to go back to my apartment
053. listening to ? the dishwasher
055. waiting for ? 8:00 to roll around
057. wearing ? long sleeved shirt, jeans and shoes

YOUR FUTURE :

058. want kids? heck yes
059. want to get married?? if only you knew
060. careers in mind? ? Public Historian or museum curator or collections processor or researcher.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX? :

068. lips or eyes? ? either
069. hugs or kisses ? either
070. shorter or taller ? taller than me
072. romantic or spontaneous? ? both
073. nice stomach or nice arms ? arms
074. sensitive or loud ? sensitive
075. hook-up or relationship ? relationship
077. trouble maker or hesitant? ? depends on how much trouble and how hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :

078. kissed a stranger ? no
079. drank bubbles ? no
080. lost glasses/contacts ? yes, it made me sad. . .i really liked them and I lost them in NC
081. ran away from home ? no
082. broken any bones ? cracked my arm by playing games on a trampoline. . .you shouldn't play dodge ball on a tramp?
084. broken someone's heart ? don't think so
085. been arrested ? no
086. turned someone down ? Actually yes. . .he wasn't exactly your good boy.
087. cried when someone died ? yeah
088. liked a friend ? sadly

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. yourself? usually
090. miracles ? yes
091. love at first sight ? no
092. heaven ? yeah
093. santa claus ? if you count my dad in his red pjs as a blur in the photo
094. sex on the first date ? no way
095. kissing on the first date ? hmm. . .NO
096. angels ? yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. is there one or more people you want to be with right now? yes.

Wheres 98? <-------right there

099. had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? no

100. do you believe in god? yes.

Why?

I drove home from church wishing and wondering if there are any guys (lets qualify here any guy who is a worthy priesthood holder and is a good hearted person) who are interested in me for me. I don't mean for looks or they are nice just because they are or feel they have to be. I hope any and all of this is making sense. I would like to have a friend of the male gender (who is not attached to ANYONE) who would genuinely tell me I look nice or want to talk to me or even DO something with me, no strings attached, but yet finds my company delightful. Wouldn't that be nice? I think so. I am just so frustrated with this and it is probably just me and my way of thinking. I feel like it is in my face all the time because 2 of my roomies are dating and one is engaged. The engaged one and the younger of the two that are dating ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS talk about marriage and so it is a constant thing here at the bachelorette pad. Yet I am doing all I can to put myself out there. I go to all of the activities and things that I can, I have institute, I'm active in my ward, but still! There is only so much a girl can do!!!!!!!!!! I feel like I have done everything that the Lord wants me to up to this point in my life, and yet nothing is happening.

I'm most likely being very impatient, but sometimes I hurt so bad for someone (like now). . . good guy friends who want to do things with me and will talk to me and such. I felt very much ignored today at church by guys. . .what am I saying? I ALWAYS feel that way. Am I alone in this? CC has many guy friends, Kip has Fresno, Stewie. . .well she's married. . . Liza. . .that leaves us or am I alone in this because you have guy friends like that too? Am I too boring to talk to? Is that it or is it something else?

Does any of this make sense? Can you sense my frustration?

I Love Lucy homework break

So two and a half pages later I am taking a break, watching I Love Lucy, and eating and apple with peanut butter.

Snowboarding was WICKED SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!! The air was clear and the weather was warm and I didn't miss much last week. I biffed it a few times and on the very last run down was on the intermediate hill. I slid half way down the hill and got snow in unmentionable places. At one point I was going down hill headfirst. I was able to get my feet first but I couldn't stop until I slowed down because I didn't want to body slam the mountain and continue to headfirst again. I let myself slide but the snow was getting in my eyes and gave me the equivalent of an ice cream headache so I grabbed my foggy goggles and shoved them in place roughly. When I finally stopped I removed my goggles and put the soft part of my gloves up to my eyes for some relief, and luckily they were somewhat warm. I bet it looked FREAKIN' AMAZING! I am one of those people who thinks the powder flying is cool to look at and I know there was some.

I think I will finish my paper later. . . it is getting close to bedtime.

What I should be doing.

I have such a headache and am sitting in my room while my roomies and their boyfriends are downstairs. I'm watching Muppets from Space when I should be working on a personal narrative for my English class. It has to be about 8 pages and I am racking my brain trying to figure out what I'm going to write on. Clueless as to what I should write. I doubt that I can write 8 pages, but I could be wrong. I am also waiting for my laundry to be done. I am on the last load but our dryer is slow slow slow. . .like it took 3 hours to dry my clothes two weeks ago. I hope it doesn't take that long to dry my jeans!!

Waste of a day or healthful?

I went to my walking class and the instructor said "You don't look good."
I returned "I don't feel good."
She told me, "Go home."

So I did. Later I went to the campus doctor and got a perscription strength decongestant. Then By the time I got back home I was so worn out that I called work and one of my professors to say I wasn't coming. I slept until 1:30 and ate lunch at 2. I then watched 2 Weeks Notice. Unfortunately I had to go to class. . .I couldn't miss my night class, teachers rules basically. I so totally did not learn ANYTHING from class today. Oh well.

Now I'm vegging and also almost sleeping. Looking forward to going to work tomorrow and taking more decongestant.

CC's antiboy, hairy legs, and rommie s

So, antiboy and I have an art history class together which is no big deal but today he was lucky that I'm sometimes nice. He asked if he could copy my notes while he sat in class and did his artsy fartsy design crap. . .(I don't have a vendetta against designers, I just thought it would be funny to type) . . .my policy is usually if you are in class and you understand English and you do not have a disability you must take the notes yourself. Unfortunately, I was really quite groggy and not understanding and caught off guard, and since cc is a designer and my sister and the antiboy is just so dang nice I said yes. He better not get use to it. Anyway, on to the hairy legs thing.

He was telling me that his friend set him up with a girl who told the antiboy that she did not shave her legs. Antiboy thought that was horrific and manly to have hairy legs. It made me laugh because TMI I haven't shaved for a week, because I haven't had time to. Not that I was going to tell him that but yeah, HILARIOUS!!!!! We both came to the conclusion that maybe it was her way of saying that she wasn't interested in him and didn't want another date.

(side note-- I am "watching" KUED and there is this weird opera thing on it with this woman as a butterfly (it claims it is a queen but it looks like a butterfly) and she is singing about her lost daughter. . .it was funny because as she sang her robes? would lift up in the air and she looked like a butterfly and would also wave making her look like she was flying. Really the whole thing is quite disturbing. . .I wonder what opera is.)

My roomie S is pissing me off right now. Our home teachers came tonight came and she was taking it on herself to answer for us all. NO RIGHT WHATSOEVER to do so. It ticked 'L off too. Controlling, manipulative, and condescending girl. She was really curt with me to when I asked her if she knew who straightened the grapefruit knife (I think she is lying) she told me no. The reason I think she is lying because she said "You mean the knife that was bent?" I said yes and then she got really defensive and was like NO.

She has changed form the person I knew and was really sweet into a brat and someone that I don't want to be friends with or have anything to do with. I don't think she realizes that. I have been praying for charity, but obviously that is slow coming.

Staples and the Office

I went to Staples today to look at desk. I walked in and back to the furniture and one of the male sales associates asked me if I needed any help. I said I'm just looking and continued on, but I half expected to hear the guy say "I will literally be right here if you need any help." If you haven't heard it, it is from The Office. The full director's cut is on nbc.com right now. It is HILLARIOUS you should watch it!

boredom

You Go For Brains!

You want a guy with a big... brain. And of course it would be nice if he were a total hottie, but you're not counting on it. What's on the inside is what counts for you. (Besides, you can always change the outside later!)

Do You Go For Brains or Body?

Your Inner Eye Color Is Blue

You've got the personality of a blue eyed women You're intense and expressive - and always on the go You've also got a sweet, playful side - which draws men in

What's Your Inner Eye Color?

What Your Blue Outfit Means

You're a classic girl with an impeccable sense of style. Down to earth you project a loyal and honest persona. You are sweetly feminine - a strong, tough guy can't resist you. Designer match: Prada Signature accessory: Fur lined leather gloves

What Does Your Favorite Outfit Say About You?

Aparently this is why I like The Devil Wears Prada

You are Glass Sandals

Dramatic and unique You're sure to be wearing something no one else is And you're not telling anyone where you bought it!

What Kind of Sandal Are You?

You are Barefoot!

You're a total free spirit, go with the flow girl You can't be restricted by shoes for very long And unsuprisingly, the same goes for men Your match is out there - and he's as carefree as you are

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

You Are 11% Fake

Fake doesn't even come close to describing you. You're totally natural, and proud of who you really are!

How Fake Are You?

You Are a Moderate Mama

You're not overly political, and your views fall more with the American mainstream. In fact, it may be difficult for you to decide who to vote for at times! Your approach to politics is reasoned and well though out.

Are You a Liberal Lady or a Conservative Chick?

You Are Artemis!

Brave, and a natural born leader. You're willing to fight for what you believe in... And willing to make tough decisions. Don't forget - the people around you have ideas too!

What Goddess Are You?

You Are Uptown

You are classy, cultured, and well educated. You are an expert on the finer things in live. Your city girl persona loves all of the opportunities a city offers. But only in the best neighborhoods.

Are You Uptown or Downtown?

HA HA HA!!!! That's hillarious!

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

You Are a Classic Gucci Bag

You've got style mastered - because you stick with what works Like this Gucci Bag, you prefer classic items that stand the test of time You're also a bit of a practical girl, who prefers function over fluff You prefer a big bag, so that you can have your stuff with you at all times

What Handbag Are You?

The not-so-bad geography class

Until today it has been a secret that I really dislike geography, but I was dumb and signed up for a Cartography class. To make matters worse, it is a night class running Thursday night from 5:30 to 8:20. UGH. After each night class I have always vowed that I WOULD NOT take another one, and yet what did I do? Yeah, I'm pretty much beginning to distrust myself when I say I'm not going to do something related to night classes.

My professor is awesome though, we get to do fun stuff like make posters IN CLASS and then present the information. It is nice, we pre-planned tonight and will put it together next Thursday. No outside of class coordination required to meet the other three people. Just peachy.

I'm looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow morning!! YAY!!!!!!! I haven't gotten to on Saturdays because of my snowboarding class, and Sundays church starts at 8:45. I am going to sleep until, hmm, I don't know 8 maybe. It will be wonderful. Anyway its 9:29 and I have to go to bed cause I'm tired and need sleep and such.

Saturday

This morning I got up and wished with all of my heart that I did not have to go to my snowboarding class. I was moving around like an old woman. . .those are just wonderful mornings. I wasn't even sure if I could grip the steering wheel to drive up the canyon, but once I got moving I began to feel better. YAY! (Yesterday I went to Big 5 and managed to get better goggles and a warmer coat and something called turtle fur, which goes around your neck to keep you warm. I love it!)
I was dreading the roads, but surprisingly they were really nice and clear. The wind was not blowing either, but the snow was cold and HARD. I had to readjust my right binding back to 15 degrees. I did manage to majorly biff it today. Nice chest plant, knocked the wind right out of me. I was really slow to get up and it worried our instructor to the point that he stopped. I grimaced, a few tears got away (thank goodness for dark goggles!!!), and got up slowly. After that I was fine, but really worn out. We learned how to do 360s and how to link up our turns and also how to improve our turns and pop out of them, it was awesome!!! I really wanted to practice more 360s but I couldn't because we moved on. It was really cool when we did them but if you don't do them fast enough you end up going down the hill really fast, which for me gets scary. I have these visions of myself virtually flying down the slopes, taking out any skier or boarder in my way. Then continuing on into a grove of trees where I ultimately skewer myself and lie unconscious to wake from a coma weeks later while the world continues on, passing me by. Nice thought huh? That is why I like to go slow and enjoy the scenery. . .not your average border.
I drove down the canyon still feeling like I was on a board so I imagined that I was. It kind of felt ridiculous but it was really fun and no one was in the car with me so why not?

I did manage to get some home work done, which was refreshing and a relief. Now I sit typing and half-watching A Walk to Remember. I don't know why I'm watching it because I will either become angry or depressed or something. . . But I don't want to be bitter, so I refuse to let the anger totally over come me.

Anyway. . .that is all from me.

You Decide. . .

You Are Picky When it Counts

Like most sane women, you want a great guy who will treat you well. But you're also willing to put up with a few flaws in your Mr. Right You should congratulate yourself on having a realistic approach to dating. You probably have quite a few great guys you can date!

Are You Too Picky?

Check it out! (Not that I believe it)

You'll Find a Boyfriend Within 3 Weeks

You're out enough to meet plenty of guys And it shows, because a few are interested in you Even if you haven't meet the right guy yet He's standing just around the corner :-)

When Will You Meet Your Next Boyfriend?

wind, cold wet powdery stuff called snow, and stream of thought

Today was our first day in snowboarding class. CC biffed it. . .I want to cry because her knee is wacked now and no insurance, thank goodness for free health clinic on campus but she has to wait til monday and I wish she wouldn't and I feel like it is my fault but I don't know, she wanted to take the class and I wanted her too and now I might have to drive up alone because she might have to drop the class and. . .and. . .and I don't know. Today SUCKED for her and I want to make it better. :( Did I mention I hate seeing people in pain? no? Well, I hate seeing people in pain, it makes me want to cry especially since I am the wimp and she never is. I should be the one crying and in pain not her! I HATE FEELING HELPLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, so. . .now that I have that out of my system let me tell you about my experience on the mountain. First of all I have to say I like Wolf Mountain because it is smaller and less expensive BUT I do like Powder Mountain because the instructor of my group has rocks. He is so better than the instructor I had at Wolf because he actually showed us how to tie our boots so they may loosen a little, but you don't have to re-tie them. He also explained that everybody has a different stance and that we should experiment with our own to get comfortable. I went on a rope tow and that was a first. I don't really like it but I had to fall off of it because our instructor told us after how to get off, which was OBVIOUS after. Duh Cupcake!!!!!! The thing is that it blew and it was yuckie at the top and I was ill prepared, so next week I will be totally prepared and enjoy the experience totally. I'm going to buy one of those things that cover your nose and stuff so I don't freeze. It will be nice. I might have to buy a new coat that is thicker and warmer. We'll see. Long sleeves is a must!

I think I should go buy CC some ice and something to put it in.

To board or not to board, that is the question.

Really, really, really want to go snowboarding. . . I talked to my boss and she is willing to let me off tomorrow to go, but the thing is, I need the money too. . . It is less expensive to go between 4 and 9 tomorrow but I don't want to drive the canyon back 'cause its too scary. I think I am going to go to have a break.

Since Monday I have had a headache. . the kind I associate with stress but I don't know why. I haven't had any time off over the break and everything seems to be building up. I'm not going to go to work tomorrow. . .I think.