Gone. . .

I keep going to up date but when I get to the page to do it all of my desires fly out the window. I could have written a HUGE entry about the return of the ANNOYING insurance sales man, and being harassed and such, but I don't feel like it. . . My name is off their calling list YAY!!!
I don't need to write about the shredded tire and swearing and and how my cousins were while they got their hair cut. . .CC took care of that. Don't desire to write anything more about that.

Today was okay. I got asked to speak in church next week on the importance of temple attendance/why the temple is important and should at the center of our membership. . . etc. I love the ward but wish I could have a hug from a boy, or be noticed or asked out or anything like that. . .is that too much to ask!?!?! To have a social life?

I wanted to cry at church. I still want to cry, it would be nice to have someone who wants to spend time with me not in my immediate family or in my immediate circle of girlfriends. No strings attached. All I want is ENJOYMENT. . .and a SOCIAL LIFE. . .and most importantly to go on a DATE. Is that too hard to ask? I mean REALLY. Stoopid JK! (this is reference to a BOY with the same initials) Yes we talked again, he is a friend. . .I am a Wendy. . .I hate that. . .he doesn't "believe in dating his friends." I'm not even really looking for comfort or anything like that. I feel frustrated that because I am still at WSU nothing is going to happen. It most likely won't until I am either at the end of grad school or working in the "real world." This SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some times it is hard to sit and watch things happen for other people but not yourself.
Some times it is hard to understand the GREAT and WONDERFUL plan Heavenly Father has for you.
Some times it is hard to be you. . .