oh my goodness. . .I know I'm going to get sick

That is just how I feel. I am stressing and trying to write my Senior Thesis. . .eek. I have had writer's block all day and I have a class tonight and so it is going to be interesting. It will be fine I know but YIKES!!!

Graduation. . .its a scary thing.

Okay, so I turned in my application for graduation today. . . It went too smooth. . .way too smooth, I feel like something is going to go wrong and I will not be able to finish. EEK! I know it will be fine though. (It has to be right?)

apparently it wasn't just me.

This morning was more normal than Tuesday, but still! It was fine, I got up and got ready for work and was finishing up what I had to do so I could leave. I literally sitting on the toilet when I felt shaking, and was like, um, this is weird. I thought it was just the blood pumping in my thighs cause some times I feel like it makes me shake. ( I know that didn't make ANY sense at all, so sorry but *I* know what I mean). I sat up right and grabbed the vanity, but, seriously. Apparently there was an earthquake in Nevada and I felt it.

Sometimes I go to work to relax. . .

Yeah, so, I'm EXTREMELY thankful to be alive right now. This morning has been CrAzY.

Last night wyoming girl and I sprayed our bathroom for ants, left the vent fan going, and shut the door to get the smell out. At about 4 am I got up because I thought that my fan was pulling in the odor from the bathroom. I shut my fan off, went to the bathroom, rinsed EVERYWHERE we sprayed to "try" and stop the smell. It didn't really work, and so I opened my window and willed my stomach to shut up because I wasn't going to get a snack when I had to get up at 6 anyway. I really wasn't feeling the greatest, but I had read the warnings on the can of bug killer and it didn't say anything about exposure so I figured we were fine. I did go to sleep thinking "I hope this doesn't kill any brain cells." I didn't sleep very well and hit snooze at 6 and then once again.

At 6:26 my alarm went off and I was going to get up when K came pounding up stairs to wake up wyoming girl. All I heard was get out and gas. I figured that since wyoming girl was parked in front of k that she had to move her car. Then K opened my door and told me to get up and out of the house because of a natural gas leak. It was loverly. She also called 911 INSIDE the house. . .we are lucky we didn't blow up! I'm glad that A smelled something strange and woke K up and k called our guy friend J* who didn't answer so she called her mom. K's mom freaked out and told her to get us all out. Thank goodness cause the neighbor smokes and if he had lit up. . . KABOOM! (*Just for the record J did call back because K is NEVER up that early so he figured something was wrong) Also I think we should point out that even though A was the last one out she was out in record time ;o)

The fire truck came and we stood outside for a while making phone calls and such until the fire woman said we should go some place warm. Village Inn it was. . . in A's car. . .I had yummy french toast with bananas and strawberries. A's boss called and asked when she could be in by. . .the latest the boss would wait was until 8:20, so A took wyoming girl back to the apartment to get her car so that we would have a ride home. Our food came shortly after they left. At least A got to take her's with her to work after eating some of it. I think A was having the hardest time with what was going on.

When we got back Qwest star cleared our apartment to be able to get into it, and K got her stuff and went to b-town. wyoming girl and Steph also gathered stuff to go to b-town. I got stuff so that I could take a shower at the gym and go to work.

While I was in the shower the qwest guy called and left a message that we could get back in and they would do a final walkthrough and turn things back on for us. So at about 9:30ish I went back and let one of the qwest guys in the house to turn on the gas and re-light the pilot lights. They were very helpful and nice. Our house is now safe and we will actually have hot water and all of those things tonight. YAY!!! It turns out that the neighbor's line had broken (his meter wasn't going). Our poor neighbor, when I went back they were moving wheelbarrels full of snow so that they could get to the problem. I figured I could be neighborly and see if they wanted me to make them any hot chocolate. They thanked me but declined because they prefer coffee. But one of them said you're a good neighbor.

Then I asked the qwest guys, the guy opperating this TINY back hoe said "Is the little lady buying?" replied "No, but I will make you some if you would like some." They also politely declined, but thanked me for my hospitality. I thanked them for taking care of the problem. They let me know that it was a pleasure and they were very happy that it had turned out this was, and that everything was in one piece one of them said "We like it when it turns out this way."

So probably about 10:30ish I made it to work. . .and am now "relaxing" trying to deal with a headache that is probably from being high on natural gas.

Prayers do work, even half-asleep mumbled ones at night!

sometimes answers come that way.

I have been struggling lately with things, because I am so stressed about my last semester at school and all that I have to do including finishing an undergraduate research project, not to mention add the stress of needing to clean up my junk at the parent's house (that was one of the reasons I had to talk to mom).

The dance last night sucked for me. The decorations were beautiful and there were lots of people but I felt out of my element and it extended into today at church and even tonight into ward stare. I have been praying to know if I should move back to b-town since I have been attending the ward and that is where my pseudo-social life has been. It has been pseudo and now it is even more pseudo since I don't feel accepted. I feel like I need a change and that change is going to come in the form of attending a different ward in o-town where I can have a fresh start. I am going to go with the other roomies especially wyoming girl cause she is wonderful.

After ward stare I called wyoming girl and we talked about how I am struggling and what is going on in my life. She is amazing and I hope she realizes that. While I was talking to her I realized that I am suppose to stay in Ogden and that maybe I need to find a different ward near where I live so that I can have a social life and enjoy myself while I am living there. I also realized that maybe life is going kind of sucky for me because I didn't really ask the Lord if I should stay in the ward I'm in after the summer was over. I stayed because I didn't know where else I would go since all of the roommate drama hit the fan. I guess I did it to myself. Time to start listening to the spirit more often or more carefully for that matter.

So here I go, most likely to hop off into the next step I need to make. . .really finding out where I'm suppose to be.

3!! 3!?!?!!!

Yes, 3. I just went to the vending machine to get a snack. Sun Chips looked good, but the bag got stuck, so I chunked in 85 more cents and bought another bag, which pushed out the other bag but the top got stuck. Luckily. . .or maybe unluckily. . .the corner was in front of a bag of ruffles cheddar & sour cream potato chips. So now I have 3 bags of chips. . .and a slenderize fuse. My boss laughed.

hee hee. . .snack=3+1

copy cat count

Eight lasts

1. last cigarette? sorry, no I'm allergic!
2. last beverage? cool, clear, water
3. last phone call? Melissa
4. last text message? Melissa
5. last CD played? Hairspray
6. last BUBBLE bath? yuck,
7. last time you cried? back when my meds were packaged wrong and my day sucked
8. last meal? what qualifies as a meal? triscuits and a clementine

SEVEN have you’s:
1. have you ever dated someone twice? in what sense, I've gone on 2 dates with the same guy, but never have dated seriously, broke up, and got back together. . .who would want to date the hairy man 2 times? YUCK
3. have you ever kissed someone & regreted it? nope <--ditto
4. have you ever fallen in love? yep
5. have you ever lost someone? in more ways than 1
6. have you ever slept until 2pm? what, waste the WHOLE day?
7. have you ever been drunk and thrown up? ew, no I can't even stand the smell of alcohol

SIX things you did in the past three days:
1. finished orientation. . .thank goodness. . .the whole "you should feel good that we hired you" thing made me want to barf
2. Went to IKEA
3. practiced guitar
4. slacked off at work
5. made delicious mac and cheese
6. wrote in my journal

FIVE people you can tell pretty much anything to –
God, Steph, Jill, Melissa, Sarah

list THREE favorite colors —
Yellows, Reds, & French Blue

list FOUR things you want to do before you die -
1. Live Debt free
2. Travel
3. Marry
4. Procreate

This month have you…
Laughed until you cried? probably sometime, like at dinner
Went behind your parents back? what? I do things they don't know about all the time since I don't live at home.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT:
1. Your last kiss? I kissed him? BLEH.
2. Gay Marriage? Not the best solution
3. Lowering the drinking age? maybe
4. Straight, Gay, or Bi? I'm straight
5. Who are the best huggers that you know? No boys. . .they don't hug me. (I'm gonna have to work on that)
6. Do you believe in love at first sight? I guess it works for some, but really I gotta know a person before I love them.
7. Is there something you want to tell someone? I want to get to know you.
8. What brand of shirt are you wearing? Gildan (symposium t-shirt
9. Would you kiss anyone on your top friends? I don't have any top friends. . ."I love everyone, you're next?"
10. What is your current annoyance? My stupid body acting up
11. How many kids do you want to have? some
12. Do you want to change your name? nope, hence the reason I will hyphenate when I marry
13. Last time you saw your father? Sunday
14. What did you do for your last birthday? Went to park city with Em and then had a family birthday dinner
15. What time did you wake up today? which time. . .last time 10
16. What were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping
17. Name something you CANNOT wait to do? have a date. . .lame answer I know, but I don't know what else to put
18. What is your favorite thing in your room? My bed and desk
20. Where is your best friend right now? Pick one: Studying, working, sleeping, watching TV or being bored<---ditto.

Friday Free Day. . .

If you want my opinion, and I'm sure that it is many other people's too, campus should have been open Friday and closed today. Some of the sidewalks weren't cleaned from yesterday's snow which has left students walking on the road. DANGEROUS!!! It is crazy the amount of snow we received yesterday! I was hoping that class would be canceled today.

Speaking of yesterday. . .we drove to church in b-town from o-town. . .it was kind of scary at 8:40 in the morning. The roads weren't clear and all that junk. Lovely. We stopped at one light but a u-haul truck that was loaded came skidding past us in the left turn lane and went through the intersection. Thankfully no one was hit.

I think I'm allergic. . .

Sunday night I had to stop at a vending machine and get a soda to calm my stomach. Yesterday my wonderful roomies Kym and Jill ran to wally world to get me some fresca because again I felt like vomiting. Today at work, I was chewing on some sugar free gum and had to go steal an 8oz sprite from the fridge. The only thing I can think of that is common in all instances was that I had artificial sweeteners and then shortly after I have come out feeling ill. It is lovely. I wonder what else I am allergic to that I am eating. BOO!!! I'm not sure about this not being able to have sweets thing.

I also have a headache now because of sugar in the sprite I was drinking. "I LOVE LIFE!!," she typed dripping with sarcasm. GRRRR.

Tonight I start my swimming lessons, I am excited and apprehensive all at the same time. It has been a long time since I have had proper instructions on swimming and I am rusty when I try to swim. I guess I am looking for improvement so I can get the best out of my workout. It also forces me to work out since I have been a slacker since school started. I am also a little embarrassed because I have a lovely bruise on my upper thigh from human Foosball last Wednesday. Oh Well.

This week has been really weird

I guess I should add So far this week has been really weird.

I don't know what the deal is but bizarre would be a great word to describe it.

I refilled my depression medication last week. I took one of the new ones Monday night ( I switched to night so that I wouldn't run out the door in the Morning and forget to take it because I was in a hurry). When I took it on Monday I had a feeling that something was wrong with it. I couldn't pinpoint what, but it seemed like there was something. Yesterday while I was at work my mom called and was frantic because the pharmacy had called and left a message that there was something wrong with my medication that I just refilled. She freaked me out, so I told her to call them back and find out what was wrong. While she was doing that I was surfing the net to find out if there was a recall but I couldn't find anything. She called back and told me that some of the wrong dosages were put in the wrong packages. I took the new one on Monday because I was too lazy to find the other one that night. I have to go to the pharmacy tonight to get it checked.

My co-worker came in sick yesterday, and we sent her home, which meant I worked the evening because we are open later on Tuesdays. That didn't bother me. We did some flip-flopping of schedules and now I don't have to work Saturday. I hurried home and made some dinner and then went back to work. At work I got on MSN and found out that Heath Ledger died. It stunned me because he is my favorite actor. I had no desire to work at all. So here I am this morning still in the blahs. I kind of feel like, ok, what's going to happen next? I hate that attitude. I think Satan is trying to have a great grasp on me right now, because it isn't the end of the world.

*EDIT*
So my prescription was 10 mgs low. No wonder I felt like crap on a stick! I am feeling better too.

When I'm old. . .

It is a HUGE list of things that I am NOT going to do.

This is one of them.

I love my grandpa, but it never fails. Sundays after our hour and a half long dinner, right before dessert he pees in his depends. It isn't that he has a problem of knowing when he needs to go, it is sadly a thing of laziness. The other problem is that he doesn't get a lot of liquids during the day so I know that this is probably why it is even stronger smelling. SO about dessert time there is this HORRENDOUS urine smell, AT THE DINNER TABLE!!!! YUCKIE!!!!!!! SO when I eat my dessert I feel like I am eating in a very dirty, smelly public restroom. We had a very lovely chocolate cake and ice cream. On the first bite I was fine because I wasn't facing him when I was chewing, but on the second or third bite I got a whiff of it again and I almost lost my dinner. OH MY GOODNESS!!! By the end of dessert mom could smell it and she was not a happy camper. She sits at the other end of the small table, but she smelled it. That is a good 3-4ish feet.


When I am old I WILL NOT pee voluntarily in my depends because I am don't want to get up. Sitting in your own bodily waste all day is not my idea of fun. BARF!!!


Okay, I'm done here.

Boredom

1. What is your occupation? Public Historian. . .but more precisely Manuscript Processor
2. What color are your socks right now? Whity-tighties
3. What are you listening to right now? the 'puter at work and my head screaming from the inside out
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Hershey's caramel kiss
5. Can you drive a stick shift? if I had more practice I could do it better
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Cerulean. . .it was chosen for me. . .
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Daddy about my Uncle's surgery
8. How old are you today? 26.5
9. Favorite drink? water. . .unless I am being bad and then it is horchata. . .but Steven's no sugar added hot chocolate is also a great choice.
10. What is your favorite sport to watch? Gymnastics, dude some of those girls can contort their bodies in funky ways. . .wow and OUCH!!
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? *sighs* yeah
12. Favorite reality TV show? none unless PBS has them, cause you know, the writer's strike
14. What was the last movie you watched? Sahara
15. Favorite day of the year? Thanksgiving or Christmas or 4th of July. Ditto, and any day that I'm off work
16. What do you do to vent anger? lots of embarrassing things.
17. What was your favorite toy as a child? My homemade, button eyed, blue corduroy cat
18. What is your favorite fall or spring? Both.. but more Spring.
19. Hugs or kisses? If you're talking of the candy, neither, but in the form of affection BOTH
20. Cherries or Blueberry? Yuck!
21. Do you want your friends to email you back? Who Doesn't?
22. Who is most likely to respond?N/A
23. Who is least likely to respond? N/A
24. Living arrangement? in a townhouse with roomies. . .I think we live in the same place! ;)
25. When was the last time you cried? Saturday.
26. What is on the floor of your closet? Shoes & Backpacks.
27. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? N/A
28. What did you do last night? Went to class, Homework and slept
29. Favorite smells? Anything that brings back good memories.
30. What inspires you? Amazing Friends and Family
31. What are you afraid of? Dark (and deer, and deer in the dark!)
32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? as long as it is made well I don't mind which one.
33. Favorite dog breed? Yorkies & Mini Schnauzers
34. How many years at your current job? Well, how are we counting? I have been here for a year, but in my current job for almost 3 months
35. Favorite day of the week? Saturday. . .SLEEP
36. How many states have you lived in? 4
38. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? no. . .I really want to.
39. Whos your favorite NFL team? What, didn't you read that I like gymnastics, so why do I have to pick a favorite NFL team?!? ok, um, 49ers
40. Do you have a house phone that is NOT cordless? Why, are you going to call me?
41. 10 inches of snow or 100 degree weather? 10 inches of snow!!! Give me my BOARD!!!!!!!
42. Oldest thing in your freezer? Vegetables. . .yeah, or bananas
43. What makes you laugh out loud? crazy dinner antics at the parent's house on Sundays.
44. What is one thing you are REALLY good at? Being me.
45. What would be TWO things you would like to do before you die? Go to all the LDS temples in the world. Get married and see my eventual children grow up and be successful
46. Hardwood or carpet? hardwood with area rugs.
47. What do you plan on doing when you finish answering these questions? continur to slack off
48. Are you a morning or night person? Morning, everything is just so bright and great in the morning.

So, I think I want a hedgehog

Yes, that is right a hedgehog they are adorable little guys who usually bond well with their caretaker when young. They come in different sizes and there are USDA approved breeders here. YAY! Something that I might be able to have in the apartment. They can be litter box trained too. w00t! They aren't smelly little guys because they aren't rodents. So depending on everything and if I feel right about getting one I just might.

I have always thought they were adorably cute and would be fun to have. I have done some research and found lots of credible information, not to mention that there is an international hedgehog association. I would like a female. . .

Anybody got suggestions for names?

Snow CRAZY

Oh, MY GOODNESS!!!

Okay, so I was at work for 5 hours yesterday. Within that 5 hours it snowed AT LEAST 1 foot. Some kind men pushed my car out of the spot and got me on the road. At least one of them was a professor. Why the University waited until 2 to decide to close campus is WAY beyond me. I need snow tires and snow boots, not just the prissy-look-good-boots, but SNOW BOOTS. I don't want moon boots or old lady boots either. REAL snow boots, hello Smith & Edwards!!!!!

I have to go to b-town tonight. I am going to go snowboarding tomorrow. . .hopefully

So yeah, I'm boring as usual, and am going to post another boring entry but gosh dang it I'm posting.


I have the blahs once again. I can't believe that school will be starting on MONDAY. In a way I am happy and excited, because once it is over I'm DONE DONE DONE!!!!! Then I will only have to show up to work, something I have looked forward to for so many years.

I need a planner, but I remembered that I have this amazing thing called a palm pilot (it may be old but it SHOULD still work *crosses fingers and wishes and hopes ever so much*) that is FREE, because I have it and don't have to buy it. I may have to purchase an adapter kit for my computer, but I think that may be it. For about $20 I have a planner that I don't have to update every year. Sounds good to me. The only problem is that it is in b-town and I am in o-town. There is enrichment tonight

HA HA HA!

You Are the Middle Finger

A bit fragile and dependent on your friends, you're not nearly as hostile as you seem. You are balanced, easy to get along with, and quite serious. However, you can get angry and fed up with those around you. And you aren't afraid to show it! You get along well with: The Index Finger Stay away from: The Pinky

What Finger Are You?

Say what?

Yeah, I don't know. I want to post but, you know life is boring. School is done and I'm just working and running around. Nothing spectacular. I have had a big fibromyalgia flare up and it SUCKS. I am determined to make it stop, but I don't know how. Unfortunately it is my hands that hurt right now. Double sucky since I do a lot with my hands at work and such.

I want to hit the slopes also , but my room needs cleaning before I do that cause snow gear is under my bed in a tote that I can't get at with a messy floor. I am SOOOOOOO tired too. Not fun. I think the end of school hit me hard health wise.

I also just want to cuddle with someone and not think about the rest of the world. Hmm, how nice would that be. Did I mention that I feel like crying? I just want to be held and for once not have to be the person worrying about me. I want to worry about someone else, I want to care about someone else. I think that this is why I want a dog so bad.

At least I don't have to worry about a dress for the dance, make it do or do without. . .

The Dress Saga. . .the end?

Ok, so amid the end of school, I went dress shopping for our ward Christmas Dance (which is an optional formal event) and fell in love with a dress. The store owner/manager said they could order one in my size, which ROCKED. It was beautiful, and I wanted it SO bad since the only other formal dress I have ever had was a choir formal. I was a beautiful vintage iradescent green with gold embroidery and beading. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!! They said that they would order it in (in my size) so I paid for it upfront with the stipulation that if it didn't fit I would get my month's rent worth of money back. I was called Thursday night and told that it was in, but that they didn't have it in a 20 so they ordered it in an 18 (which is the size that I had tried on in the store). GAH! Needless to say I was ticked. They should have checked before I even ordered and paid for it. It didn't fit. Blarg. I do have to say that it was a misses 18 and not a women's (thank goodness).

Last night right before bed I was thinking of what I am going to do for a formal. Then what my mom said popped into mind. I have a choir formal that we could remake. I have been complimented on it and the color is good. I am going to get some sheer black and make it preety. Yes, Preety. I will get some beads and remake that suckah beautifully. It will be great.I have a few ideas, but I don't want to spoil it and I don't want the other roomies to know that it was one of my choir dresses. It is just a dress that I didn't remember that I had that I added stuff to. Make it do or do with out! (I'm hoping that my mom is right and that she still has the dress hanging in the closet!)

In other news, all of my finals are done. All I have left is an assignment due thursday and to finish my internship (over the break).

Francie Pants and homework

I should be doing my homework, seeing as how I don't have a class right now but I have needed to blog for a while and Francie Pants is REALLY LOUD next door, like I can hear him above my music. Not a good study situation!!! I am also considering laying down under my desk and taking a nap with skull candy. That is sounding better by the minute! Goll-dang!

I can't wait for this semester to be OVER!

2 hours v 14 hours

Can I just say I love love love that we flew!!! Fremont is beautiful, and dinner was DELICIOUS!!!

Today FRISCO!!!