I think I'm allergic. . .

Sunday night I had to stop at a vending machine and get a soda to calm my stomach. Yesterday my wonderful roomies Kym and Jill ran to wally world to get me some fresca because again I felt like vomiting. Today at work, I was chewing on some sugar free gum and had to go steal an 8oz sprite from the fridge. The only thing I can think of that is common in all instances was that I had artificial sweeteners and then shortly after I have come out feeling ill. It is lovely. I wonder what else I am allergic to that I am eating. BOO!!! I'm not sure about this not being able to have sweets thing.

I also have a headache now because of sugar in the sprite I was drinking. "I LOVE LIFE!!," she typed dripping with sarcasm. GRRRR.

Tonight I start my swimming lessons, I am excited and apprehensive all at the same time. It has been a long time since I have had proper instructions on swimming and I am rusty when I try to swim. I guess I am looking for improvement so I can get the best out of my workout. It also forces me to work out since I have been a slacker since school started. I am also a little embarrassed because I have a lovely bruise on my upper thigh from human Foosball last Wednesday. Oh Well.

This week has been really weird

I guess I should add So far this week has been really weird.

I don't know what the deal is but bizarre would be a great word to describe it.

I refilled my depression medication last week. I took one of the new ones Monday night ( I switched to night so that I wouldn't run out the door in the Morning and forget to take it because I was in a hurry). When I took it on Monday I had a feeling that something was wrong with it. I couldn't pinpoint what, but it seemed like there was something. Yesterday while I was at work my mom called and was frantic because the pharmacy had called and left a message that there was something wrong with my medication that I just refilled. She freaked me out, so I told her to call them back and find out what was wrong. While she was doing that I was surfing the net to find out if there was a recall but I couldn't find anything. She called back and told me that some of the wrong dosages were put in the wrong packages. I took the new one on Monday because I was too lazy to find the other one that night. I have to go to the pharmacy tonight to get it checked.

My co-worker came in sick yesterday, and we sent her home, which meant I worked the evening because we are open later on Tuesdays. That didn't bother me. We did some flip-flopping of schedules and now I don't have to work Saturday. I hurried home and made some dinner and then went back to work. At work I got on MSN and found out that Heath Ledger died. It stunned me because he is my favorite actor. I had no desire to work at all. So here I am this morning still in the blahs. I kind of feel like, ok, what's going to happen next? I hate that attitude. I think Satan is trying to have a great grasp on me right now, because it isn't the end of the world.

*EDIT*
So my prescription was 10 mgs low. No wonder I felt like crap on a stick! I am feeling better too.

When I'm old. . .

It is a HUGE list of things that I am NOT going to do.

This is one of them.

I love my grandpa, but it never fails. Sundays after our hour and a half long dinner, right before dessert he pees in his depends. It isn't that he has a problem of knowing when he needs to go, it is sadly a thing of laziness. The other problem is that he doesn't get a lot of liquids during the day so I know that this is probably why it is even stronger smelling. SO about dessert time there is this HORRENDOUS urine smell, AT THE DINNER TABLE!!!! YUCKIE!!!!!!! SO when I eat my dessert I feel like I am eating in a very dirty, smelly public restroom. We had a very lovely chocolate cake and ice cream. On the first bite I was fine because I wasn't facing him when I was chewing, but on the second or third bite I got a whiff of it again and I almost lost my dinner. OH MY GOODNESS!!! By the end of dessert mom could smell it and she was not a happy camper. She sits at the other end of the small table, but she smelled it. That is a good 3-4ish feet.


When I am old I WILL NOT pee voluntarily in my depends because I am don't want to get up. Sitting in your own bodily waste all day is not my idea of fun. BARF!!!


Okay, I'm done here.

Boredom

1. What is your occupation? Public Historian. . .but more precisely Manuscript Processor
2. What color are your socks right now? Whity-tighties
3. What are you listening to right now? the 'puter at work and my head screaming from the inside out
4. What was the last thing that you ate? Hershey's caramel kiss
5. Can you drive a stick shift? if I had more practice I could do it better
6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Cerulean. . .it was chosen for me. . .
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Daddy about my Uncle's surgery
8. How old are you today? 26.5
9. Favorite drink? water. . .unless I am being bad and then it is horchata. . .but Steven's no sugar added hot chocolate is also a great choice.
10. What is your favorite sport to watch? Gymnastics, dude some of those girls can contort their bodies in funky ways. . .wow and OUCH!!
11. Have you ever dyed your hair? *sighs* yeah
12. Favorite reality TV show? none unless PBS has them, cause you know, the writer's strike
14. What was the last movie you watched? Sahara
15. Favorite day of the year? Thanksgiving or Christmas or 4th of July. Ditto, and any day that I'm off work
16. What do you do to vent anger? lots of embarrassing things.
17. What was your favorite toy as a child? My homemade, button eyed, blue corduroy cat
18. What is your favorite fall or spring? Both.. but more Spring.
19. Hugs or kisses? If you're talking of the candy, neither, but in the form of affection BOTH
20. Cherries or Blueberry? Yuck!
21. Do you want your friends to email you back? Who Doesn't?
22. Who is most likely to respond?N/A
23. Who is least likely to respond? N/A
24. Living arrangement? in a townhouse with roomies. . .I think we live in the same place! ;)
25. When was the last time you cried? Saturday.
26. What is on the floor of your closet? Shoes & Backpacks.
27. Who is the friend you have had the longest that you are sending this to? N/A
28. What did you do last night? Went to class, Homework and slept
29. Favorite smells? Anything that brings back good memories.
30. What inspires you? Amazing Friends and Family
31. What are you afraid of? Dark (and deer, and deer in the dark!)
32. Plain, cheese or spicy hamburgers? as long as it is made well I don't mind which one.
33. Favorite dog breed? Yorkies & Mini Schnauzers
34. How many years at your current job? Well, how are we counting? I have been here for a year, but in my current job for almost 3 months
35. Favorite day of the week? Saturday. . .SLEEP
36. How many states have you lived in? 4
38. Ever driven a Motorcycle or heavy machinery? no. . .I really want to.
39. Whos your favorite NFL team? What, didn't you read that I like gymnastics, so why do I have to pick a favorite NFL team?!? ok, um, 49ers
40. Do you have a house phone that is NOT cordless? Why, are you going to call me?
41. 10 inches of snow or 100 degree weather? 10 inches of snow!!! Give me my BOARD!!!!!!!
42. Oldest thing in your freezer? Vegetables. . .yeah, or bananas
43. What makes you laugh out loud? crazy dinner antics at the parent's house on Sundays.
44. What is one thing you are REALLY good at? Being me.
45. What would be TWO things you would like to do before you die? Go to all the LDS temples in the world. Get married and see my eventual children grow up and be successful
46. Hardwood or carpet? hardwood with area rugs.
47. What do you plan on doing when you finish answering these questions? continur to slack off
48. Are you a morning or night person? Morning, everything is just so bright and great in the morning.

So, I think I want a hedgehog

Yes, that is right a hedgehog they are adorable little guys who usually bond well with their caretaker when young. They come in different sizes and there are USDA approved breeders here. YAY! Something that I might be able to have in the apartment. They can be litter box trained too. w00t! They aren't smelly little guys because they aren't rodents. So depending on everything and if I feel right about getting one I just might.

I have always thought they were adorably cute and would be fun to have. I have done some research and found lots of credible information, not to mention that there is an international hedgehog association. I would like a female. . .

Anybody got suggestions for names?

Snow CRAZY

Oh, MY GOODNESS!!!

Okay, so I was at work for 5 hours yesterday. Within that 5 hours it snowed AT LEAST 1 foot. Some kind men pushed my car out of the spot and got me on the road. At least one of them was a professor. Why the University waited until 2 to decide to close campus is WAY beyond me. I need snow tires and snow boots, not just the prissy-look-good-boots, but SNOW BOOTS. I don't want moon boots or old lady boots either. REAL snow boots, hello Smith & Edwards!!!!!

I have to go to b-town tonight. I am going to go snowboarding tomorrow. . .hopefully

So yeah, I'm boring as usual, and am going to post another boring entry but gosh dang it I'm posting.


I have the blahs once again. I can't believe that school will be starting on MONDAY. In a way I am happy and excited, because once it is over I'm DONE DONE DONE!!!!! Then I will only have to show up to work, something I have looked forward to for so many years.

I need a planner, but I remembered that I have this amazing thing called a palm pilot (it may be old but it SHOULD still work *crosses fingers and wishes and hopes ever so much*) that is FREE, because I have it and don't have to buy it. I may have to purchase an adapter kit for my computer, but I think that may be it. For about $20 I have a planner that I don't have to update every year. Sounds good to me. The only problem is that it is in b-town and I am in o-town. There is enrichment tonight

HA HA HA!

You Are the Middle Finger

A bit fragile and dependent on your friends, you're not nearly as hostile as you seem. You are balanced, easy to get along with, and quite serious. However, you can get angry and fed up with those around you. And you aren't afraid to show it! You get along well with: The Index Finger Stay away from: The Pinky

What Finger Are You?

Say what?

Yeah, I don't know. I want to post but, you know life is boring. School is done and I'm just working and running around. Nothing spectacular. I have had a big fibromyalgia flare up and it SUCKS. I am determined to make it stop, but I don't know how. Unfortunately it is my hands that hurt right now. Double sucky since I do a lot with my hands at work and such.

I want to hit the slopes also , but my room needs cleaning before I do that cause snow gear is under my bed in a tote that I can't get at with a messy floor. I am SOOOOOOO tired too. Not fun. I think the end of school hit me hard health wise.

I also just want to cuddle with someone and not think about the rest of the world. Hmm, how nice would that be. Did I mention that I feel like crying? I just want to be held and for once not have to be the person worrying about me. I want to worry about someone else, I want to care about someone else. I think that this is why I want a dog so bad.

At least I don't have to worry about a dress for the dance, make it do or do without. . .

The Dress Saga. . .the end?

Ok, so amid the end of school, I went dress shopping for our ward Christmas Dance (which is an optional formal event) and fell in love with a dress. The store owner/manager said they could order one in my size, which ROCKED. It was beautiful, and I wanted it SO bad since the only other formal dress I have ever had was a choir formal. I was a beautiful vintage iradescent green with gold embroidery and beading. B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!!!! They said that they would order it in (in my size) so I paid for it upfront with the stipulation that if it didn't fit I would get my month's rent worth of money back. I was called Thursday night and told that it was in, but that they didn't have it in a 20 so they ordered it in an 18 (which is the size that I had tried on in the store). GAH! Needless to say I was ticked. They should have checked before I even ordered and paid for it. It didn't fit. Blarg. I do have to say that it was a misses 18 and not a women's (thank goodness).

Last night right before bed I was thinking of what I am going to do for a formal. Then what my mom said popped into mind. I have a choir formal that we could remake. I have been complimented on it and the color is good. I am going to get some sheer black and make it preety. Yes, Preety. I will get some beads and remake that suckah beautifully. It will be great.I have a few ideas, but I don't want to spoil it and I don't want the other roomies to know that it was one of my choir dresses. It is just a dress that I didn't remember that I had that I added stuff to. Make it do or do with out! (I'm hoping that my mom is right and that she still has the dress hanging in the closet!)

In other news, all of my finals are done. All I have left is an assignment due thursday and to finish my internship (over the break).

Francie Pants and homework

I should be doing my homework, seeing as how I don't have a class right now but I have needed to blog for a while and Francie Pants is REALLY LOUD next door, like I can hear him above my music. Not a good study situation!!! I am also considering laying down under my desk and taking a nap with skull candy. That is sounding better by the minute! Goll-dang!

I can't wait for this semester to be OVER!

2 hours v 14 hours

Can I just say I love love love that we flew!!! Fremont is beautiful, and dinner was DELICIOUS!!!

Today FRISCO!!!

Mashed Potatoes

I love my roomies.
I made the BEST mashed 'tatoes. I had never made them before. . .yummy!
I can't wait for San Francisco.
I need to go to bed NOW.

Its been one of those days

And it is only 12:27!
Last night I took a break. . . a needed break. I didn't do my homework or anything that needed doing, instead I played with clay some good old me time. I needed that. I think I want to bring my wheel back so that I can play more often it was a release. This morning I didn't make it to work at 8 and the boss said that was fine. As I was driving to class I had this feeling that I shouldn't go to class. Good thing, it wasn't five minutes later that I was crying in my car talking to mom. I hadn't hit my wall yet, and I think I did today. . .and PMSing. I'm still a little teary eyed, but so much better. Things will get better, I know they will, but right now life is work and school, with hardly any play. I am debating whether I want to work all day Friday and Saturday to make up for the San Francisco trip. I don't know, right now, not really, might as well burn a day of vacation right? I will be so RELIEVED when the semester is over and I can breathe.

Happiness

I am so happy, I got home about 20 minutes ago from my parent's house since I stayed over night after the date. Things seem to be going in the right direction (well, I feel like they are) and for once I feel really good about everything. It is a nice feeling, unfortunately it will not always stay that way since we can't be happy 24-7-365. Unfortunately I am rather tired and don't really want to do my homework. I would rather be sleeping. . .or typing as the case may be.

Here is a quick run-down on my date

It was wonderful, he was prompt, if not early, which I like. He was a gentleman and opened all the doors for me. We went to the Javier's on 12th. I think it is the best one since the food came super fast, they gave us the chips and probably five to ten minutes after that our food came. SWEET. It was busy but not noisy (they have carpet on the floors and a lower ceiling than the one on Harrison). I don't know if I'm the only one that this happens to but, usually when I go on dates it feels rather awkward, this one wasn't it felt kind of weird, but nice since we slipped into conversation easily. He doesn't like to make decisions, it is funny cause I hate doing it all the time, so after dinner I said you get to choose what we do next and gave him some options on what to do next. We went to mom and dads house and made super yummy brownies and watched Cars (he had never seen it). It was fun cause we got to bake together it is fun to see how people act in the kitchen. It seemed like he felt comfortable there and he really liked the brownies and he LOVES dark chocolate!!! My parents came home at the end of the movie and so he met them, and he and dad talked work for a few minutes. He didn't seem uncomfortable then either. I sent some brownies home with him too. Before he left he said "We should do this again, I had fun." I agreed. I am somehow going to put the ball into his court and try to get him to take the initiative. Sometime during the night he said that he was painting his house. I really wanted to offer to help, I think it would be fun. I think I will since I like service.

I think there is potential there, only time will tell.

Happy Century!

Yeah, I FINALLY reached 100 posts. To celebrate I am going to. . .I don't know so here is what happened today.

Got up LATE. A late night killed me and I have a STUPENDOUS headache. I managed to do homework before class. . .it was wonderful. . .I needed to. I can't believe how blessed I have been lately. I was afraid that I would not be able to do everything I need to when I took on my new job. I have tried to keep the Sabbath day Holy and pay my tithing and do everything I can to make it so that the Lord has to bless me. I guess it works.

I just chopped off my hair. I am so happy. The girl who did styled it put too much product in it, I'm not one of those type of hair doers. I have to wait until morning, after I've styled it myself to see how it does. It is entirely too poofy right now. She said that I had the healthiest hair that she has seen in a really long time. It made me feel good. She also has the type of hair that I have and so she gave me some styling tips.

I have a date tomorrow. I asked, I was tired of sitting around on Friday nights. I have no clue what we are going to do other than go to Javier's. YUMMIE!! We could come to the apartment and watch a movie. I don't know. I just got off the phone with him and he is excited and so am I.

My goal is to be asleep in bed by 9:30 or earlier tonight.

Snowboard

I am thinking about selling my board. . .
I am kind of afraid to get back on it. . .
I don't want to be paralyzed. . .
I love the sport so much it hurts to think about selling it.
I don't know.
Stumpy sort of kind of does. . .


Okay, other things I have yet to blog about.
I start my "new" job on Monday. I don't know, it is going to be difficult taking 10 more hours from my schedule to work. At least they love me and I can do homework if I have to. I do get a pay increase, and benefits, retirement options, work space, keys, to be on library committees and more responsibility. 8:00 mornings, blarg.
I am getting senioritis really bad, I just want out of school. I want some play time. A social life might also help.

For the second time I have asked a boy out and have been turned down because they had prior commitments. It SUCKS. I am going out on a limb to ask and I feel like it is breaking on me and I plummet to the ground and go splat. Some days this is why I want to be a pile on my bed FOREVER then I wouldn't have to talk to them.

I went to the temple yesterday and had a really nice time. I didn't expect to spend 4 hours there but I did initiatories and then a session. It was great. I feel so calm and at peace. I was inspired to read some things that I had been given at the end of my mission. It was from some previous APs.

My Sister

Is the AWESOMEST EVER!!! Instead of doing what she needed or wanted she spent about 3 hours helping me in my struggling room. It looks ten times better and I feel like I can get the upper hand on it tonight. THANK YOU CC!!!!

Confessions of a Girl

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
It really depends on who it is. . .I have had guys offer, but, it REALLY depends on who it is.

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
Where would I be go in in a big poofy dress? How short is the short party dress?

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
Keep it for ever and ever because I am a sappy romantic at heart

4. Group dates or single dates?
Single. You gotta get to know the guy!

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
yes! <---Ditto!

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
no, but they are pretty and sparkly

7. Is your hair up or down today?
down. . .it usually is down.

8. Do you straighten your hair?
only if I want to flip it out.

9. Favorite mascara?
One that I can wash off with water.

10. Do you get your nails done?
Did once, it lasted about 2 weeks and then I ripped them off, they were very disruptive to everything!

11. Small or large purses?
I love purses, so why limit it to just one size?

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
Wallet, lotion, keys, planner, chap stick.

13. Jeans or sweats?
I only wear sweats if it is a really cold day for snowboarding.

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable?
every once in a while

15. Do you text message a lot?
to certain people yes

16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
Wonder what happened since I'm not married and there is NO guy in my life. It would have to be something like immaculate conception. . .that would be blasphemous!

17. What’s your favorite color?
red, yellow, green mostly

18. Heels or flats?
both, it depends how my feet feel

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
most normal girls do don't they?

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
Every Saturday (even when I have to work, like today)

21. Walmart or Target?
Depends on how much money I have and if there is anything on clearance that I want

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
yes

23. Do you like preppy boys?
depends, do they act all preppy and too good for you?

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
depends on if it makes my lips feel good.

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
Yeah, they were on sale at Claire's for 50 cents

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
If I'm late, not much time at all

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
I only like fabric band aids if I must wear them

28. Do you like skater boys?
Are they punky and have a bad mouth? if yes then no

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
Yes

30. Gold or silver?
Silver. . .looks better on me. . .sometimes gold but it depends on how brassy it looks

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
What girl doesn't. I think it is a compliment

32. Do you like surfer boys?
sure, I guess. . .do they surf on Sunday or go to church?

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
If I feel like it

34. Do you like to wear dresses?
If it makes me feel beautiful

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
6

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
Yes, birthday dinner for CC

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
I'm kind of superficial that way. . .who is it and I'll tell you yes or no. Sometimes short guys try to make up for it with ego.

38. Do you like to hold hands?
Yes

39. What is the youngest you would date?
23, I have found that there are a lot of guys out there that are VERY immature and I really can't handle that . GROW UP!

40. What is the oldest you would date?
probably about 35. Don't know

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
Eyes, mouth, personality, how they treat people

42. Is it hott when guys sweat?
it depends on what he's been doing. -- agree!

43. What is the best feature in a guy?
how he treats women, so kindness I guess

44. Do you like making eye contact?
Yes

46. Would you kill for chocolate?
No

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
After I decide if its worth it.

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
If I have money to spend 10

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
no, I catch it online

50. Do you yell a lot?
Only if I'm onery

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
never

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
no

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
no

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out?
I live with out it.

55. Do you fall in love easily?
How am I treated by the guy I am suppose to fall in love with?

56. Do you have cramps?
when I am PMSing

57. Do you think you have the bestest friends ever?
yeah

4:35 am promptings

This morning I woke up with a start and the thought that I needed to go all the way down stairs and stop the dryer which had my clothes in it. I tried to push it away but it kept coming. I grabbed my flash light and my robe and headed down to the "dungeon." The dryer was still running so I turned it off. As I was leaving I noticed that roomie A's bedside light was still on, so I thought to be nice and to save energy I would turn it off for her. I sneaked into her room to turn it off. Unfortunately it was a lamp that has the push button that goes all the way through the lamp, and it was louder than I thought it would be. I was hoping that she is a heavy sleeper but she obviously isn't. The click it made scared her. She mumbled thanks, after I told her that her light was on. I feel so bad. She probably thinks that I was snooping. . . I wasn't. When I got back up to my room I said a little prayer that she would fall back to sleep quickly if she hadn't already. I feel so bad about that. Bad enough that it took me a while to fall back a sleep.

Public Once Again

I figured that after the little fiasco a while ago, and that the roomies have changed, I will go back to public. Welcome ALL!

I also resolve to only put positive things in (about others).

finished application

ten days ago my future job was posted and yesterday i finally finished applying. it has been interesting to see who has tried and wanted to apply. one of my colleagues even visited with my boss to ask if they would consider him with education in place of experience. i have realized that you really do have to have an 'in' in my line of work. i guess i have been pretty blessed.


yes i know that i haven't capitalized words and such, i'm using hunt and peck with one hand as i lay on my bed.


my roommate a is a scary driver and k is a horribly bossy passenger driver. i think i will stay home next time they go somewhere. bleck. i miss jn!

UCC symposium time

I ran around like crazy. Now I just want to be a pile on my bed FOREVER.

This week has been. . .

Long, short, late, scary, great, spiritual, tiring. You name it I've probably experienced the feeling this week. I am greatful that I made it through, with help of course. I couldn't have made it with out the Lord!

Monday we had a fire drill in the library. It was just a practice, nice excuse to get out of the building and be in the sun. I got to see a guy I went to high school with. We talked while we waited to hear when it was "safe" to go back in. We keep running into each other at the institute. I saw him again on Wednesday. Wednesday morning I told myself that if I saw him I would ask him if he would like to do something. I saw him but I chickened out, then I chewed myself out that I didn't do it. I was all excited and everything. Dumb, dumb, dumb, DUMB!!!

I also wrote a paper on Monday in the car, on the way to Ikea. . .the HAPPIEST place on earth. I bought a string of l.e.d. star lights (Christmas). . .SO CUTE. I hung them above my bed. I don't know what I did on Tuesday, but it wasn't homework. . .oh yeah, I went to wally world with roomie J. Spent more money than I should have, but I will use all that I bought. I have to reign in on the spending though.

Wednesday, I went to Brigham, and did homework. I only went because I needed to get some papers from certain people for the ward history. Then I had to do homework. I thought it would take me a short time. My fault I know, I had the assignment for 2 weeks. I will do better on the next one. I stayed up well past midnight to get it done. Thursday I rolled out of bed to make it to my class at 10. It was canceled. Didn't follow the spirit to check my e-mail. Turned around and went home and slept until 12:30ish. Ate grilled cheese for lunch and then went to my 1:00 class, the one the assignment was for, sat through an extremely boring lecture and went home. Boss lady said I didn't have to come in. YAY!! Didn't get in bed early either. I intended to but didn't happen. I did start applying for my job that FINALLY got posted yesterday.

Skipped my institute class, this morning. rolled out of bed at 8:00. Got to work at 9:10 with five minutes to spare. I get to stay here ALL DAY- Everyone else is at CIMA at the BYZoo. That's ok, when I got into my car Billy Joel was in my CD player and it was good. Now I'm listening to it because sometimes its a Billy day. Did I mention that I started PMSing on Wednesday night?

I feel like I have been running ragged and late for everything. This morning I showered and blow dried my hair just a tiny bit then put on a headband. Brought my breakfast and lunch to work. Yummy cereal and frozen berries. . .

Public or Private?

I have been going back and forth of weather I should go public or stay private with my blog. I think for the time being it'll stay private.

I should start a new post named not soon enough, but I'm lazy.

I have a friend getting married tomorrow, and I talked to her today. She is, I really don't know. She has gotten flaky, but that is usually what happens to engaged girls. I WILL NOT BE ONE OF THEM!! That is my vow. But anyway, she got a bunch of things mixed up and I had to straighten her out. It was funny. I really don't envy her. She had wanted me to be her maid of honor, but I am glad that she asked someone else, I don't want to be in charge of anything at the wedding. I have gotten to thinking and now I REALLY think it would suck to be a brides maid or a maid of honor for a friend, a family member wouldn't be as bad though. I would feel out of place I think, in a friend's line.

Bed Time!!!

Happy October. . .Almost. . .

Probably by the time most of you read this it will be.

Last week I was "proven wrong" by a three guys in two days, separate occasions. It went like this.

Wednesday JY, who I know from High School saw me at the institute after class and we chatted it up for a few minutes. Then I found out that he was parked on 34th street, so I offered him a ride. It was interesting. He actually initiated the conversation, and waited to talk to me after I stopped to say hi to our cutie-pie new roomie J. It really surprised me because, oh, I don't know. . .boys don't usually do that for me. Especially not of late, and I think that has partly caused the funk I was in, but I'll write about that later.

Thursday was (I keep almost saying linger longer, but its not) $2 lunch at the institute. $2 for a good meal (mostly)!!! As I was on my way to the 'tute I saw this guy with a shirt that said "I think therefore my head hurts" I loved it, so I texted it to most everyone I know who is in school. . .I got a few responses, but that was it. I randomly sent one to CD, but I figured that he had probably erased my phone number and forgot about me. Little did I know. While I was at work my phone started to vibrate, and I pulled it out and saw it was CD!!!! Happy day! I ran into the stack room and answered it. We chatted for like 5 minutes, but it was enough to make me feel good, because he ACTUALLY remembered me and took the time to say call and say hey, I got your text, and then he asked if I was at work and what I was up to and why I wasn't in the ward any more. I asked him questions, that were interspersed in his like, are you still working at aspen mills (no, he is working for a physical therapist) and other happy things like that.

Also on Thursday, at lunch I spotted a guy who I have wanted to talk to. He is in my Poly Sci class and we are doing a legislative simulation on the U.S. Senate. I made the excuse that I wanted to ask him why he chose to represent NC (really because I did want to know, (I had really wanted NC)). I got my lunch. . .and since I'm always alone, I went to his table and almost didn't have the guts to ask him, and almost just sat down feeling all lonely. I didn't though, I set my food down and then decided to ask. . .it was kind of awkward, but soon we got in to a good rolling conversation about anything and everything, like watching channel 9 (uen) and 7 and 11. We even talked about grad school how he wants to go and how I want to also. He said I should go for it this year and not wait. That is confidence in me that I don't even have. I was having a good time and I think that he was too. He kept smiling and he had really warm happy sparklie eyes, ( I did look, they are brown) He wasn't afraid to look me in the eye either, which is really refreshing, he seemed sincerely interested. I must give off this air that I don't mean to, but I do. How bout I call him LJ?

This should really go in another post, but I'm feeling too durn lazy to get another one going.

Sacrament meeting was okay, it being fast Sunday and the month that the reds and em and kris are getting married, it seemed that all the testimonies focused on them and the fact that they were "graduating" from the ward. I have to tell you, it kind of pissed me off that you have to "graduate" from the ward the fact is that some people don't. I talked to the Bishop after sacrament since I felt like crap. I spilled it all, like how I have been a really crabby person as of late and being sure about the job I'm gonna get and then not being sure about it. . .and yes, even being frustrated with dumb boys, who only want to be friends, or totally ignore you, or just for being dumb and insensitive. Bishop T. said that there are a lot of dumb boys (yes he called them dumb!) in the ward. I'm so glad that we girls are not the only ones who see how dumb boys can be! He gave me some other advice and then gave me a blessing.What a comfort it was to have one. I am not doubting anymore and now have hope. Typing this blog entry has also helped me feel better.

Past my bedtime. better go.
cheers to all.

Is it 4:30 yet?

Today has dragged on, since like 2:00 this afternoon. I almost didn't get out of bed to make it to my first (and only) class. It is institute and my cousin is in the class, and I enjoy it so I MADE myself get out of bed. I re-started my swimming routine, that had fallen to the wayside. I HURT today because of it. I keep thinking, just keep doing it, you will feel better eventually. I hate the word eventually because sometimes it doesn't come, or at least it feels like it will never come. Its freakin' cold at work today too, not a good thing when my body hurts.

I HATE BRAS!! too bad I'm too well endowed to runaround with out one because that would feel oh so nice since on days like today it stabs and pinches and is all around uncomfortable. On the up side, I actually curled my hair today since I showered after I swam last night. I even made myself look more presentable, and have gotten some nice compliments about how I look today.

Vending Machines Are EVIL!!

So, yeah, I'm working today and it is SO S-L-O-W! I had one guy come in to ask for directions. Right now, as I type I am confronted by a headache and reading for a class. I caused the headache myself. OWIE!! I went down stairs to get a snack. . .a SEMI healthy snack. . .well I did. But I also got Zingers. Can you say TONS of sugar? They were just calling my name. "Cupcake. . .you want me, buy me and eat my sugary goodness. I'm oh so yummy." I'm stupid like that sometimes. I don't always equate sugar to instant pain like I should.

Late

I stayed up too late last night and literally couldn't get out of bed this morning to make it to the class I was doing my homework for. That Sucks. My body now hates me too. (I hate me for being so stupid and forgetting I had more homework than I thought.) I got to get up on these things!

sick

I feel like I am beginning to get sick. NOT GOOD!! My throat feels like I need to clear it all the time and kind of scratchy. I'm hoping it isn't sickness though. I know being stuck inside isn't helping me either especially now that school is in session.

Football

I went to b-town tonight for the weekly activity, flag football. I got there just in time to join the yellow, and losing team. . .we lost but finally got 2 touchdowns. I *almost* made an interception, and I made a few awesome blocks (I couldn't catch the ball so I batted them to the ground instead and the guys thought I was an awesome blocker). And I have some battle wounds (more like bruises). I'm so glad I went up and played in b-town!

"Applying"

Yesterday my boss handed me the information for the job I am "applying" for. It hasn't been posted quite yet, and will take some revision but it is quite close to what I will be doing. Last Friday J.S., S.L., and Mrs. Librarian met together to discuss some things, one of which was the 1/2 time position that is now left vacant. . . (see 2 posts ago and notes). Really I will not be ready for grad school next fall and I have sort of changed what I want to do. MLS anyone? At 4:20ish S.L. came back from her meeting and pulled me aside and said "would you be interested in a 3/4 time position?" 30 hours a week? Salary? Benefits? Uh, Yeah! "Will you be able to finish school and work 30 hours?" Yeah, no problem!! That is J.S.'s biggest concern, that I won't finish school. . .this year. Hello, one class left after this semester, and if I had to I could go to 1/2 time.

Other than that not much is happening. Classes are good. Cousin L. is in my institute class and I L-O-V-E my guitar class. I'll have to describe my professor in a later post.
Cheers!

Bringer of Bad News.

It seems like I am the one to find things wrong in Special Collections. First it was the book ends sticking to the WOODEN shelves. . .yeah that was fun to pull off. Today while moving some of our manuscript collections I found water damage on some of the boxes. . .do I need to say water and paper doesn't mix? Thankfullywe haven't, and hopefully we won't discover any damage to anything HOUSED in the boxes. The constant struggle of protection for a collection is kind of unnerving. Last week we thought we heard water dripping in the back room. . .nothing came of it. We are buying water detectors that run on 9volt batteries and go off for 72 hours or until taken care of. Maybe someday the University will get with the program and get us a better place to house the books and collections we have here. . .You know like NEVER!! The funniest thing is that our department probably has the most direct contact with powerful people who have LOTS and Lots of moolah, next to development and the president's office. Do you think that sounds important? I wish we were considered more important than we are treated, but if wished were fishes we'd all have a fry. MMM yum fish. . .

Prest-O Change-O

There is a lot going on. . .Or at least it feels like it. Yesterday I copied information for 3 hours on what I believe are extremist people running for president. THREE HOURS!! When my S.L. my boss told the the boss man, J.S. that I was not happy. He said "She does realize she is a student worker, doesn't she?"
S.L.'s reply, "She has been copying for THREE HOURS, and has used a WHOLE ream of paper!"
Ms. Librarian (the head over it all) was not happy to hear that. Ya know, neither was I when I loaded paper from the second ream in the copy machine and looked at the clock. I had been on a roll with shelving books!

(I love Pandora radio!) Jack Johnson did a cover of Imagine. Did you know that? It is Awesome!

Apparently WSU Archives and Special Collections is going to be mixed up a little. I am looking forward to it too. It will be nice to work right under the head and not have to worry about her sneaking up on me and find me taking a break by playing a game or typing in my blog. I also get a place to process and not have to worry about cleaning it up every night. THAT will be nice!

Sigh of Relief

I am so happy that S is out and K is in and J will be in and CC is moving up (and approves of J). Good feelings now roam free in the apartment and it feels SO much better than it did before. Thank goodness. I think I will feel so much more secure once we get the keys back from S (hopefully tonight).

When I walked in the door last night it was empty (she practically took everything that was not tied down) but the spirit had entered again and it felt very welcoming to be able to feel it. It is such a lovely feeling.

I love B-town!

Becca and Kevin made me happy tonight. We talked and had fun bowling with the wardies. Becca asked me for the chisme. It is so good to feel loved. Denton smells good. . .too bad he's so immature and such. . .and flirts with "everything female that moves." I "kicked" his butt. . .but not hard. To get back at me he put his hand on my back and started rubbing it till he found my bra strap which he immediately flipped. It wasn't hard and it didn't hurt. It was kind of funny and I laughed. Man, he smells GOOD! Scooter came up to bowl, CC invited him. I guess he told cc that I should smile more because I'm cute. I don't know how I feel about that. The Wouden boys are hotties.

I also got Kevin to move Becca's jewelry chest upstairs on a commercial. It was funny. I got called "the ax." She has wanted him to move it for like a week. She thanked me. It was cute and funny that I got her fiance to move something (with scooter's help) that she wanted him to move. They are so cute together!

I HATE DRAMA!!!!

Forgetful.

Apparently I had a meeting last night that I forgot about. CC reminded me when it was WAY too late to do anything about. GAH!!!

Questions people ask Special Collections

We have all kinds of questions people ask and today was one of the dumbest ones so far.

Mostly we get:
Why are these books back here?
How come I can't look at the 1st edition Book of Mormon? (whats the point of having it if no one (even sc staff can't look at it? I've never seen it))
Can I check these out?
(mostly over the phone) I need to find out why my tuition wasn't paid. . .or something to do with the cashiers office (I answer Stewart Library Special Collections and they still do it!)

Today a girl came in and said "I need to get a book in Special Collections."
"Well, you've come to the right place."
"Are they back there?"
"Yes"
"Can I go back there and get it?" (the door says "Authorized Personnel Only")
"No, I'm sorry. Please fill out this form and I will get it for you. Do you have the dewy decimal number?"
"Yes. . ." (She begins to fill out the slip which asks for name, phone, address, material requested and if you are a student, faculty, or member of the community.) After filling out her name she says "Is all of this really necessary to fill out?"
By this time I was getting tired of her and had other patrons to help so I said: "we need either your address or phone number so that if the book is damaged we can contact you." Truly that is all it is for and because of the patriot act after they are done with the book and we have checked for damage the paper gets trashed. What I felt like saying: "I asked you to fill out this form did I not? I'm sorry but I can't help you unless I have everything filled out!! Oh, and since you asked if it is necessary add your SS and C Card number too."

She reluctantly put her phone number down, and the author and title of the book. . .no DEWY!!!! Saying yes means you have it doesn't it?

So, apparently I'm making more.

Starting YESTERDAY I am now at $7 an hour! I know it isn't much but the improvement will help SO much. Thanks to boss lady and head boss lady!! Back in April I was raised to $6.40 and now I am increased again! Happy Day!!! That and an increase in hours for more money.

I Want A PUPPY!!!!

Yes I know I can't have one, but I found a Beagle named Dudley Do Right. He is 3 and trained and everything and just SO cute!!!! http://search.petfinder.com/petnote/displaypet.cgi?petid=8925443

IKEA!!!

CC talked me into going to IKEA and it was WONDERFUL. Thanks CC! Tonight was college night and to get a free "gift" (a frisbee or tool) and a gold envelope. . . if you showed your student ID. We met Kip there and went in and flashed our id's and received our gifts and then our "drawing" freebie. Then we went upstairs and opened our envelopes. . . I got $100 gift card, Kip got $25 and CC got a free hot dog ( and it wasn't even really free cause she has to buy one to get one. . .lame) I nearly passed out and almost cried. SERIOUSLY. Free $100! I was SOOO excited. I thought that it said 1.00 not 100. I spent 32 of it so I have about 67 left. I did buy something for cc cause I felt bed about it. Hope she enjoys her light! I bought a veggie steamer and a reading light that is now by my bed and I love it! I am going to think about what I want to spend the rest on because I could use some more storage things, like drawers and such.

The Ultimate Player. . .

I have been listening to Tolstoy's book Anna Karenina on CD. There is one character that strikes me as the ultimate player and then eventually adulterer Ronsky and I know I didn't spell it right either.

I have been dealing with more DUMB feelings. . .I told CC that I wanted to make out. . .I really would love to, but seriously? Come on, I can see how it would make me feel the same I do now, and maybe even more lonely and worthless. Hmm. . .experience. Been there, done that, got rid of the boy. Talk about feeling used.


I just feel lonely right now.

Gone. . .

I keep going to up date but when I get to the page to do it all of my desires fly out the window. I could have written a HUGE entry about the return of the ANNOYING insurance sales man, and being harassed and such, but I don't feel like it. . . My name is off their calling list YAY!!!
I don't need to write about the shredded tire and swearing and and how my cousins were while they got their hair cut. . .CC took care of that. Don't desire to write anything more about that.

Today was okay. I got asked to speak in church next week on the importance of temple attendance/why the temple is important and should at the center of our membership. . . etc. I love the ward but wish I could have a hug from a boy, or be noticed or asked out or anything like that. . .is that too much to ask!?!?! To have a social life?

I wanted to cry at church. I still want to cry, it would be nice to have someone who wants to spend time with me not in my immediate family or in my immediate circle of girlfriends. No strings attached. All I want is ENJOYMENT. . .and a SOCIAL LIFE. . .and most importantly to go on a DATE. Is that too hard to ask? I mean REALLY. Stoopid JK! (this is reference to a BOY with the same initials) Yes we talked again, he is a friend. . .I am a Wendy. . .I hate that. . .he doesn't "believe in dating his friends." I'm not even really looking for comfort or anything like that. I feel frustrated that because I am still at WSU nothing is going to happen. It most likely won't until I am either at the end of grad school or working in the "real world." This SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some times it is hard to sit and watch things happen for other people but not yourself.
Some times it is hard to understand the GREAT and WONDERFUL plan Heavenly Father has for you.
Some times it is hard to be you. . .

Shopping is usually fun.

Not when it is for insurance.

I signed up for some free quotes for health insurance and the first call I got was from a company that is a middle man and will swindle you out of $100 extra $ for their "services." This guys name was "Roy Studley" no kidding!! He tried to get me to sign up for a plan over the phone. I am NOT that stupid (disclaimer: I am stupid on certain days and at certain times) Luckily it wasn't one of those times. When I got the call it was from an 800 number and I was like oh, its a telemarketer but I answered anyway. The guy told me that there would be a possibility that wouldn't be able to find insurance (because of medications) for around $100, never mind the fact that I had been looking and there are places that I CAN get insurance for around that price. I told him that figure to see what he would come up with. I also said something about having a letter stating that I can't be denied insurance and he bit into me about that and how I would get charged triple the price if I even MENTIONED that I had a letter like that.

There was an "application fee" of $100 and the guy was so fast talking that he tried to get my ccard number and I wouldn't give it to him. I told him that I needed to think about it and talk with my parents to see what their advice would be. He said oh, are they paying for it? I said they might be helping me but they won't be covering it all. He said (and quite rudely I might add) "Well Miss Cake your parents aren't going to be paying for it, so it is up to you to decide if you are going to have insurance, it is YOUR choice." (at the end he raised his voice and it ticked me off even more) If you don't already know I'm the type of person who WILL NOT be forced into something that I don't want or have to do. The harder someone pushes the harder I reject. I said I'm sorry I will call you back when I have decided. I'm not calling back and if they call me I am going to ask them to put me on their do not call list, and also ask to talk to a supervisor and let them know HOW I was treated."

I went from sure I might be insurable to scared that all my experiences were going to be like that.

At about 1:45 I got another call from a NICE insurance guy. . .an actual INSURANCE representative not an inbetweenie-weenie. Because he was kinder and calling from an 801 area code I let him know that I was looking for options and that I would ultimately decide. He explained how insurance works and what might happen and why. He also said don't be scared that you won't be able to get ANY insurance because you can get limited insurance. He also EXPLAINED to me how it worked. He was very nice and gave me options and then said cup cake talk to your parents, tell them what I told you and if you have any questions at all CALL me. I'll even talk to your parents and re-explain it to them. (So much nicer and kinder and such.) Let me know what you find out. He even said I will meet with you because no one should buy insurance over the phone and he added that it wasn't like a cell phone plan where I couldn't decide that I didn't want it and have to pay for it any way. Much nicer, more positive experience.

Hip Hip Hooray!!!!

I LOVE MY DADDY!!!!! My car has been acting up and the check engine light WAS on. It has been on for quite some time and I have been asking my dad to fix it. When I can't get him to fix something I turn to my mom and she works her magic. This time all it took was "What do I have to buy to fix cupcake's car?" He made time to do so today. We, and I do mean we cause I like to tinker and help under the hood, replaced the spark plug wires. . .they were factory originals (my car is a 2002) 1 spark plug and put a bottle of lucas fuel injector cleaner in the gas. As I was driving back to the apartment the light went off. SO HAPPY!!!

The happy happy happy side is now I can drive my car to Lava and have some "Personal Time" YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

Oh my stars. . .

I really need to clean my room so that I can study for the GRE and also look for sources of recreation using salt (undergraduate research grant). It seems like every time I am determined to clean some thing happens, like tonight. I had a migraine when I got home and had to lay down and ended up falling asleep. I got up at seven and had dinner and now I feel overwhelmed as I sit and type. . .I hate that feeling and it seems like I can't ever get away from it. It is difficult to want to do certain things even though I know should.

Good Freakin' Grief!!!

I went to pay my Old Navy Bill and I found out that I am a day late and so they are charging me $25 for a late fee! GAH!!!! I went to post it on line but it will still take 2 more days to get them the money. This is so frustrating I think I'm going to cancel my O.N. Card and my L.B. cards so that I don't spend money I don't really have. Looks like it is time to start selling my plasma (as soon as I am off of my antibiotic) . . . that should be FUN! Blarg!

I often go walking in meadows of clover. . .

Not really but I wish. Yesterday I walked to and from church. It was really nice and I enjoyed it. The sun is hot, but dang it felt good to be outside! I have discovered how much I LOVE walking. I am slightly sunburned, but it is fading fast.

I got set apart for my calling as Ward History Specialist. . .YAY!!!!!!!! Can you say help my portfolio? Its awesome, I'm so excited and can't wait to start. I have been thinking of staying in the ward after school starts. . .it is very tempting, but we'll see how my fall semester goes.

Happy Day!. . .to me.

Yes I know it is a happy birthday cake hot air balloon. . .it was the funnest thing I could find. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! ;)

Lying sack of CRAP!!!

Yeah, I'm not mad or anything. I went to the dentist office today for my LAST check up before I go off the parents' insurance. . .the dentist usually says that I have perfect teeth. Last time he said this too.

That brings us to this time. He said you have a couple of dark spots on your teeth. . .that isn't all, he said they were there last time too. I felt like yelling "How could I have had 'perfect teeth' last time if there were 2 spots!!!!!!" Its called PREVENTATIVE maintenance for a reason!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO now, as I am eating my lunch I am regretting every bite. The dentist told me that it is from eating very sugary candy. HA! So I said well, thats funny, cause I can't eat highly processed sugar. He was stuck on the sugar thing though that is what gets me.

In other news I got my car's transmission serviced. I'm so glad, cause it runs SO MUCH better. Nice and smooth!

A lot on my mind

I have been trying to figure out where I should really apply for graduate school and which form of the GRE I have to take. (I am going to refuse to take the history focused one since many of the schools don't require it.) I have a few options, but I have to figure out if I want to study Public History, Historical Preservation, Conservation, or Museum Studies. I don't know and since only time will tell I will leave that be for awhile. . .

Sometimes I wish life were easier for us all. . .

Boys. . .

Ever feel used, or convenient? I should write about it but I also need to write in my paper journal, read my scriptures and go to bed. . .I will hopefully write about it later

Our Beloved Roomate. . .

Yes, another roommate update. L, bless her heart, was looking at the SLC temple hanging up downstairs. As she was looking, she asked her boyfriend/fiance if when they remodeled the tabernacle if "they got rid of the ugly dome thing." I wanted to interrupt her "innocently bad question" (I'm trying to be more nice and not say mean things. . .words are gifts) and honestly give her a lesson on how AMAZING that building is even if it is "ugly." I was good and nicely whispered to her bf that she was talking about the tabernacle (he had no clue what she was talking about) and that they didn't get rid of the dome, but covered it with metal sheeting and reinforced the structure. She thought that it was actually part of the temple. I had a nice little giggle in my room. :D

new things

Our roomie AB is moving out to live in the apartment she will share with her husband when they get married. She is graciously leaving the towel, bathroom rug, and shower curtain liner (it is nice but I want to hang my towel on the towel rack. . . Once she is gone I think I will. It is nice to have a towel but one that no one uses. . .for decoration. . .it is nice in theory.

Unfortunately I need to go to the dollar store now to buy shower curtain rings. . .dollar store rings, cheap, don't care if they break cause I'm leaving the liner in the bathroom when I leave, and the dollar store by albertsons is now open. . .close close close!!!! If I want to shower tomorrow I need to buy them today. YAY!!! good thing I have a dollar in quarters!

I'm gonna miss the microwave and the toaster! the toaster especially since I love to have warm crisp bagels with pb & j.

IKEA

yes, been there done that. The fam went yesterday and it was AWESOME! There were alot of people though and that was the bummer. I did buy stuff though.

I was told by a co-worker that she and her husband that they were going to wait until the novelty wore off. I had to explain that it wasn't a novelty for my family, that every time we are in Cali and there is an Ikea in the area we go. It was really quite funny, cause after she was like oh.

It is AWESOME. . .can't wait til I have my own place and can purchase my own couch. . .I found one I love.

I am astonished!!!!

This morning I was in the other room putting lotion on and when my mom came in and said "Is your birthday on the 20th or 21st (of June)?" My jaw dropped. . .literally. Then she proceeded to tell me that Dad says its on the 21st and she says its the 20th. After I told her the 20th and continued to be appalled she said, "Don't act so surprised." (What, can't they remember the youngest of their 2 daughters is the 20th. There is only TWO of us!!!!!)

So I said, "Mom, there's only TWO of us!" Then she walked off to inform dad that it is actually the 20th.

It is kind of funny though. . .something that I can laugh at.

Things you might think would be funny in church but. . .

At work The Mormon Tabernacle Enquirer came in the other day and liza and I have been having fun with it. It is written by the Sugar Beet People.

I have to share this article. . .

"Things that seem like they would be funny, but are not"

~Using grilled cheese sandwhiches for the sacrament
~Slipping into the Relief Society room and loudly telling any random old lady that you found her diaphragm
~Solemly appointing High Priests to be captains of fifty for the march to Jackson County
~Sending a letter to all the laurels saying they can wear what ever they want to girls' camp
~Telling the priests they can serve as priesthood chaperones at girls' camp
~Standing to bear your testimony and then falling to the groung and wrestling with an unseen demon
~Telling the nursery leader that, like an apostle, her calling is for life
~Tie-dyeing your garments
~Telling the choir director to inclued a drum solo in the next Easter program
~Whispering to that pimply-faced deacon that you know the real reason he had to get glasses (honestly I don't understand this one)
and last but not least
~Dumping your fiancee because she's not physically fit enough to make the walk to Missouri

Things you might think would be funny in church but. . .

At work The Mormon Tabernacle Enquirer came in the other day and liza and I have been having fun with it. It is written by the Sugar Beet People.

I have to share this article. . .

"Things that seem like they would be funny, but are not"

~Using grilled cheese sandwhiches for the sacrament
~Slipping into the Relief Society room and loudly telling any random old lady that you found her diaphragm
~Solemly appointing High Priests to be captains of fifty for the march to Jackson County
~Sending a letter to all the laurels saying they can wear what ever they want to girls' camp
~Telling the priests they can serve as priesthood chaperones at girls' camp
~Standing to bear your testimony and then falling to the groung and wrestling with an unseen demon
~Telling the nursery leader that, like an apostle, her calling is for life
~Tie-dyeing your garments
~Telling the choir director to inclued a drum solo in the next Easter program
~Whispering to that pimply-faced deacon that you know the real reason he had to get glasses (honestly I don't understand this one)
and last but not least
~Dumping your fiancee because she's not physically fit enough to make the walk to Missouri

16 cent tomatoes

I went to wal-mart tonight and bought some food to hold me over 'til payday and yes that included one tomato costing 16 cents. . .hee hee hee. Also I found sugar free cinnamon rolls. . . YUMMIE!!!!! I have to say that I was extremely doubtful about the imagined goodness on the flashy package but gosh dang it, I had been craving cinnamon rolls. Glad I did!

My last post said something about cutting my hair off. I go through these spurts and want to cut it off, but secretly I really want longer hair again. I'm just letting it go, first of all because I really have no moolah to pay for a cut and secondly it is getting long enough to put hair things in and THAT makes me EXCITED!!!!!! :D I know, I'm a dork.

Tonight I *should have* cleaned my room, gone through a book that is over due, filled out my fasfa (I need money for school. . .any one want to donate to my charitable fund?) **Not tax deductable, sorry hee hee. I did exercise though.

The FORCED fireside and other various things

Okay, so I voluntarily went to the CES fireside, and it was great. President Faust is a WONDERFULLY FUNNY sweet little old man. A spiritual giant trapped in an aging body. That fireside was AWESOME! The tute in BC decided that they would invite the tute choir from Logan to put on another fireside after that. . .It turned out to be immediately after that, no stand up and stretch or anything like that (and Stumpy needed that!!). My behind HURT!!!! I was stuck next to the wall on a bench with 3 other girls I didn't know. The people in charge stood up and said brothers and sisters sit down. GRRR!!!! So a fireside that let out early (President Faust believes in short meetings). . .almost 30 minutes lasted until almost 8:30 when I got home. . .there were people that I needed to talk to since I hadn't seen them. GAH!!!!!!

The various other things. . .well it turns out that it will only be another thing. I think I am going to chop off my hair again. . .I did it today (curled) and it looked cute, but I like it short. . .and I noticed a lot of mid-length and longer hair. . .It looks nice, but I am lazy. Other reasons. . . I don't want to look like every other girl. I think the main reason is that I don't want to cater to boys and how some of them love longer hair. It is probably just my rebellious stage cause I realized today that I am not ready to get married and have a family. . .not prepared is the main thing. Sometimes I am unhappy about this but I am not ready. So I might chop the hair that I have off again. . .

Car Alarms

Apparently, my clicker for my car works up in my room when I'm parked in the drive way. Wanna know how I know? I accidentally hit the panic button while in my room. Random!! WOW! Talk about long range!

In other news, today at the gym I saw Michael from my old job!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was so nice to see him! Random too!

I've noticed. . .once again

This is really quite random, but I have noticed it. The spirit dwelling in a house makes it a home, and you feel safe there even if it isn't your home. I have come to that realization tonight, the part about the house and home. I use to be doubtful that I could feel the spirit and discern when it left, but I have realized that living in Utah and being surrounded by mostly members of the church it is there quite often. I had the opportunity to go to a non-member's house tonight and I realized this. Also the spirit makes things brighter, maybe warmer and happier. . . I don't know how but it does.

Jane Eyre, Homework, Stumpy, Tampons, Encore

Okay, so I know they don't all go together but. . .they involve things that happened today. Well today-ish. . . Liza has a link on her blog for Jane Eyre. I watched it and had to watch the whole thing. . .on youtube. I didn't get through all 4 episodes until 2am this morning, but I am happy I did because I needed a break (and I wouldn't have slept anyway since I needed my ibuprofen to kick in). Some times you have to stay up and do something for yourself.

I have an announcement to make! ALL of my homework is DONE DONE DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't it great, and I still have 3 days to spare.

This might be TMI. . .depends on who you are. . .Stumpy (my tailbone) hurts right now, but I have found another plus of of snapping the end of your tail. . .I don't pass gas as loudly. . .it is much quieter. . .I like it that way cause then no one will hear me if I'm in my room! ;) The other TMI object is how much I LOVE tampons. They are great. . .and I feel cleaner when I use them. . . I'll leave it at that.

Tonight I went to Encore at the U of U Kingsbury Hall cause Em asked me to go. . .I couldn't say no. It was a great experience and I needed to get away from the apartment.

Tomorrow is my last Sunday at the university ward. . .I'm attending a different one for the summer and MAY come back in the fall. . .depending on how well I'm getting along with my roommates at the time. YAY to church with cc!

HAPPY DAY!!!!

I'm just a little happy. . . I got permission to "double dip" by working and doing my cooperative work experience at the same time. Why not get paid to do 6 credit hours worth of work? I also signed up my senior seminar. . .exciting stuff!

I also got one of my papers back and the people who critiqued it gave me an A+, A, & A- so I know that my writing skills have improved and I did well on the paper.

What else? My friend works at Bajio. I went there tonight because I was hungry and have craved their salad. Mmm, Mmm, Mmm! So this friend. . .she is awesome because I had to wait so long so she gave me a free drink. When I asked for a new card for earning a free meal she stamped it twice. Yay, super cool friend, and something totally not expected.

So, now I'm going to complain about the roomies. Everyone is sick except for AB and Me. . .They are kind of ticking me off. . .not CC though. I ended up starting the dishwasher because it was FULL FULL FULL!!!!!!!!!!!! PISSES ME OFF! I also had to take the garbage out too or else it wouldn't go out. BLARG!!!!!!!

Sigh. . .what to do? I know that three of them stayed home all day and one of them spent a good amount of time on the couch. . .ew. . .get some lysol. . . okay sorry I've vented but I guess some people don't have the same standards as I do when it comes to sickness and keeping from getting others sick. So now I am in my room, and will continue to hunker down so I don't get sick.

Dish cloths, Dish towles, and Harry Potter

I have been crocheting dish cloths and towels for our roomie that is getting married. I have also been watching Harry Potter. . .it has been good to relax and do nothing school related.

I went to walk for your life class and my teacher said I looked like death. Its probably because I have been sleep deprived. . .going to bed at 11 and waking up at 5 to do homework and study for tests. I'm so tired right now. I should just go to bed.

Temple day tomorrow morning!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!

Random

Oops, blah, what did I do?!?!

Okay, here's the deal. I just bought a new phone, a Razor. Its pink, its pretty, no it isn't like cc's (no design) but I like it. I'm now thinking WHY did I do this? I really want the phone, but you know, I could have made do with my other phone. . .I have 14 days to decide I don't want it. But I want it.

Now I'm watching antiques roadshow. . .there are these guys getting animated over an old Gale Sayers Football jersey. It was kind of funny. The appraiser was like you see all of these tears? That's what makes it worth more (because Sayers actually wore it "in battle"). hee hee hee. . .it made me laugh and then think "Do I do that about things?" I probably do.

Did I mention that I'm also going to go to grad school? No? Well I am. . .got the answer that that is what I need to RIGHT AFTER I graduate December 14th. So in a year from now I should be at ASU or UNCG. Right now I'm leaning to Arizona State University because I have a professor that knows all the people down there and said: "I'll run interference for you." he was serious about it too. It does matter who you know that they know someone at the school you want to go to.

Yay, look, a post!!!!

So, Yeah, among other things. . .I have so much in my mind and to write about. I got a MOUSE!!! YEA!!!!!!! (No kip, its just for my laptop.) I saw the B's tonight at a wedding reception, wonderful people (the bride and groom and also the B's). I am quite up to date on my homework. I feel more on top of things. My room needs to be cleaned SUPER bad. . .Like no other. Enrichment night is tomorrow. I'm not so much into CD as I use to be. I have learned a few things and I'm not sure he's for me. We're still friends and such. I'm not going to pursue it anymore. Ate Bajio for dinner. . .so I'm up late. . .gosh dang it DIGEST food! Now I am watching a show on a guy who has ALS, it makes me thankful for what I have trial wise. It is sad. I love the gospel!

Case of the missing plates

Okay, this is more for CC, so I don't interrupt her tonight. . .hope she reads it! ;) A asked me yesterday if I knew where the rest of "her" plates went. I was like what? She explained that she was "missing" plates and that she had to wash plates for her dinner night. You know. . .they have pink around the rim? I told her that I didn't know where her plates were. I said nothing about your's though. I really don't know how many she has but I'm pretty sure that they are in their fridge. You know. . .like my pan was that no one "knew" where it was.
Tonight L asked me if I knew where all the other plates are. I was like yeah A said there are plates missing but I don't know where they are. I do have to say that I don't know where you put your plates. . .can't see them and ain't going to go looking. . . hee hee.

Did I mention that my sister is the MOST AWESOME designer EVER? She is. She is going to come back with a job, I just know it!

Stumpy

The library is remodeling the room next to us. . .and there are new chairs that they got as "back ups" for when they have activities the the room. I sat down on one today to see if they were comfortable but promptly got back up. . .IT HURT to sit on! Hear me library admin. these chairs SUCK! (did I mention that they are also ugly and clash with the carpet?) When I sat down my boss was in the room and I said something about the chair hurting to sit on. So as I got up my boss said, "Oh, it hurt Stumpy?" (inside joke. . .that is what I call my butt now since I don't have the end of my tailbone anymore) I said, "Yeah, it hurts Stumpy," and gave her a puppy dog look. Then she said "I'm sorry." Then I said these chairs are no good. . .I don't like them. . . (personally I think they should be SENT BACK to where they came from. . .is there a store called Hell Seats? Cause they are. . .the armrests are very rough, like sandpaper. . .we now have in-house exfoliators. . .

Check that off of my list (well, almost)

I am just taking a break from my homework. I am almost done with transcribing an oral history, I just have to type it up. . .my right hand and arm REALLY hurts. . .6.5 pages of hand written tediously transcribed interview. I think I might type it later and work on something that does not use my hands. I have been working on it since approximately 5 pm and it is nearly 7. I don't feel so discouraged though, which is a really nice feeling.

FYI: Today was SO much better than yesterday. I was on a downhill slide emotionally and spiritually and I couldn't stop it. . .So much better. . .happy today.

Okay, so the last post was uncalled for. . .but it was truly how I felt!

CD called me back and we played phone tag because I didn't hear my phone ring and obviously he didn't when I called back.

He called me while I was at work today. . .good thing my phone was on vibrate. . . I went to answer it and it was like I was IN the zoo, you know the special limited time only exhibit of CUPCAKE, only comes once in a life time to your zoo so you better go see it!! My boss and liza were BOTH watching me. Come on a little privacy please? No, not in Special Collections! When I became aware of this I headed for the stacks where they DID NOT follow. Thank goodness!!! I had asked if he would like to go on a picnic. He told me that he wanted to take me out to dinner. YAY!!! So after I got off the phone I did my happy dance. . .but had to stop. . .not properly clothed around a certain area. . . hee hee hee. So yeah.

So. . .yeah. . .um. . . I do crazy things with out thinking sometimes.

So. . .I have gone crazy and have decided not to think. . .some times it isn't the greatest thing in the world others it is wonderful.

In Sacrament meeting *had* the opportunity to sit by CD but didn't because I didn't know if I should and my stuff was all ready sitting on a bench. So I didn't but I REALLY wanted to. I didn't do it cause I was thinking.

Today they announced that there is no FHE tomorrow. Sad day!! So once they announced it I started formulating a plan. . .which plan is yet to be finished. I'm hoping that it will be positive. I am waiting for a phone call. I don't want to stay home alone on Monday so I thought I would ask CD out. . .that is really as far as I have gotten. . .see what I have done? Not thinking!!! But we could go for a picnic. . . or something. . . I am really freaking out that he is going to call back and say no or can we just be friends or something random like that, or not call back at all.

Awesome Tacos!

The tacos last night were fabulous.
Most of the conversation was great. . .aside from the few questionable parts. . .including over used basketball comments (not the story Kip). I feel sorry that I didn't get to talk to Adkins very much but am glad she had fun anyway.

I did get to talk to CD and it was wonderful. I don't know. He is just an all around great guy that I am trying to get to know better. We talked about his mom who died of cancer in 2004 and I could see how much he loves her and that he is a peace. For someone to talk about the deceased with a smile on their face is a wonderful thing. What a great thing the gospel is!! He told me more about his family and I could see that he loves them with how he talked about them. He also said that he enjoyed his time with us last night and the food. He tried the horchata. . .he was kind of hesitant but thought it was pretty good. (it really needed more cinnamon too bad I didn't realize it until later : ( He left early because he had to go birthday shopping for his sister (her birthday was yesterday, but don't worry he didn't ditch her cause she was at the Rascal Flat concert). I really wanted to go with him to help pick something out for her, but I couldn't do that and be a bad co-hostess. He also had to be to work at 4 am this morning. . .ugh. He was happy though. he doesn't work tons, and enjoys his job. We also talked about my job and how I will be working over the break (fine with me cause I like $ the necessary evil to survive). I should have invited him up to tour the stacks, but didn't. . . I want him to though. I have invited him before. Maybe I'll see if he wants to go to lunch or something and then see the stacks. . .hmm. . .evil idea! And, oh yeah, I told him that we should start practicing a duet to play in church sometime. Good excuse to see him more and get to know him better. He agreed.

Work yesterday killed me, but I needed to do something so I shelved books. I have a trigger point in my back that hurts really bad and it flared up yesterday. Em, could tell I wasn't feeling the greatest and kept asking if I was okay. I told her no, but don't worry about it. I wanted to have fun! I can't focus on the pain or else I wouldn't get anything done in my life.

Now its morning and I really should go back to sleep. I think I will, and maybe later today I'll go shopping. . .I really feel like shopping. . .mall, old navy, I need to go to the distribution center too. . .shopping is fun!!!! Not that I need to but it would be nice.

sitting in the hot seat.

I was literally sitting on my heating pad because my butt hurt. . .it felt nice. . .
Hmm. . .other things to write?

Saw CD on Sunday he was really nice and happy.

Saw CD at institute today. . .he came in late but sat right behind me and said "hi cupcake" before he sat down. After class, to my dismay, he left quite quickly and I thought he was long gone. Not the case, he waited for me in the hall and talked to me. . .I have been quite giddy all day. I can't concentrate on my homework and I need to get something to eat before FHE. . . Of course I HAVE to go. . .well, I don't have to but I want to. I really should do my homework, but what's the point if you can't concentrate?

Friday

So, where to start. . .
It was absolutely fabulous. . .
If I only had one sentence that would be it, fabulous and that's all.

Actually there is more.
About 6:45 he, lets call him CD, called me and said he would be 15 minutes late. (Very curteous) That was fine because I was running that late too. I couldn't find my couscous recipe and still haven't, but thanks to liza who saved the day. . .YAY!!! THANKS!

7:30 rolled around and he still hadn't come so I tried to call but there was not answer so I sat and waited wondering where he was. When he finally came he brought flowers with him!!! Not just flowers, but YELLOW & WHITE!!! Did I mention that yellow is my favorite color? He certainly didn't know but he brought me yellow lillies and carnations and daisies and white ones too! So I told him.

Such a gentleman, he served me dinner and then raved it dinner. We had green salad (with radishes, tomatoes, carrots, and cucumber), couscous with orange zest and dried cranberries, and pork cutlets cooked in basalmic vinagrette dressing, and chocolate cheesecake. He told me his mom use to cut up radishes in salads and he loved it and he never had had couscous but he liked it. He had second helpings of everything, including the cheesecake which I sent home with him after the dance. When I asked him if he wanted it he said, "Yes, but that is only my carnal desire. You should share it with your roommates." So I told him that I intended to make it with sugar free pudding but I picked up the wrong one. So, because I am not suppose to have that much sugar, so by taking it he was helping me so that I wouldn't eat it. Then he took it, I'm glad he did because he liked it so much.

On our way to the dance he offered to drive. I was fine with that. As we walked to his truck he suddenly said let me pull my truck out so you don't have to step in the snow. He pulled it out onto the street. He did and then put his truck in park, got out, and opened my door!!!! In the middle of the street!!! What a great guy.

The dance was awesome, awesome, awesome. He taught me some moves because he loves to dance. . .I do too. . . YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! We had so much fun. . .it was great. Unfortunately I don't have pictures yet because my digital camera wasn't working so we used my slr and will have to use the rest of the film to get them. . .darn it!!!!

Anyway that was the day. He is so sweet. . .

Sugar free chocolate, wrestling roomates, and almost-burnt-popcorn

Yes I should be cleaning my room, but no, I don't feel like it and my body hurts.

Yes, I went to the store to buy TP and also bought more sugar free chocolate right before FHE and then after FHE SC and Ali were wrestling. . .And I wanted popcorn so I made some. . .it is almost burnt. . .so that may explain it.

Okay, now the goods. Institute was awesome, and my Friday date was there. After tute he asked me "So, are we still good for Friday?" No kidding! Yay! Okay, now, I'll slink off to my corner and think happy thoughts.

Holy Crap Bat Man!!!!!

So, daddy-o just called me to say, "Two years ago yesterday we flew out to pick you up from the mission. Sunday it will be 2 years ago that we got you from the mission home." EEK!!!! time sure flies when you're having fun!!! Or it just flies.

Liza went yesterday to pick up her sister from the airport. She has been talking about it all week. . .well for longer than all week. I have had so many memories come flying back to me. I really wish that I could go back and at least visit. that would be nice. I miss my NCCM peeps SO much.

I'm killing any date nights at our apartment.

I got to the apartment before anyone started watching the big screen TV and am now watching the Devil Wears Prada. Lindsey and Brian went somewhere when I got home and so I was really sneaky and grabbed my DVD. Meryl Streep is an AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME evil lady!

I HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thats all. . .He's not dating anyone and he is excited to go the the institute spring formal!!!!!!!

The Great Cheerio Route Formula + Bull Crap=Dropped Geography

Can you tell from the title that I am fed up with geography? Well, I am. Today I talked with a financial aid advisor about what it would do to my financial aid if I withdrew from a class. She said I should be fine, but warned that if I ever went to take the class again it would have to be above and beyond 12 credit hours. . .but honestly I'm not going to take the class again. . .didn't like it too much.

I went to the registration windows and withdrew. . .it feels good not to have a night class and especially from a foreign crazy woman who tells us that anything is fair game for a test. . .including movies that we watched once and were suppose to remember (and she didn't make them avaliable on reserve or anything to review). We had a review the week before but most everything that we reviewed was NOT on the test. . .so hmm, is there something wrong with the way she was doing things? "I submit that there is!" Can life get any better since I have dropped the class? "I submit that it cannot." (a little clearification would be that I mean academically life can't get better than this)

Cheers!

A few thoughts. . .

In my walking for fitness class today we did "Walking Wisdom." Every time we went around the track completely we exchanged the thought we had for a different one. One of them has stuck with me and I cannot forget it so here it is:

"Until you value yourself, you will not value your time. Until you value your time, you will not do anything with it." -- M. Scott Peck

Another quote I have been pondering came from an e-mail forward to my Institute teacher Bro. K. I don't know who wrote it but it rings true.

"What if the Book of Mormon is to us what a cell phone is to the rest of the world?"

I think it is very profound. Bro. K. went further to say "What if we carried a copy of the Book of Mormon everywhere with us instead of a cell phone. What if we treated it like a cell phone and cared for it and put as much time in learning from it and we do learning and using cell phones? Would you turn around an go home to get it if you forgot it like you do a cell phone?" To me it is having the gospel on my mind or more importantly the Savior more than things of the world.

Just a little inspiration. . .

Not so Bummed Boarding

Okay, so I went boarding again to day, BUT before you break out in rage against me for doing it let me tell you 3 things.
1. I was boarding as part of a class and have to finish it.
2. I wanted to go to my last class with the instructor and classmates.
3. There was 17 inches of SOFT, FLUFFY, SOFTER-THAN-YOUR-BED-WHEN-YOU-FALL POWDER!!!!! (and yes I fell on my butt today [but mostly I managed to turn and go down on my hips {not so painful}]).
So broken butt girl couldn't stay away from the mountain-- it was calling!

I still have one class to make up and will be waiting until there is more powder (hopefully next week) to make it up so pray for snow so that it will be soft for me!!! ;)

It was a wonderful day and it felt good to exercise again. My class thought I was brave too. I love them and will miss them SO much.

I Promise

I have been working on my butt story. . .hopefully it will be done soon! Patience please! I also have a major test to study for so it might be thursday or friday before it is done.

A Butt Smackin' Good Time.

Well, as I sit here waiting for my super mommy to finish my butt pillow I think I'll write on how I broke my butt.

But first I have to say Liza and I went shopping on Friday night, before the whole fanny fracturing fiasco. It was a blast. I bought a new leather purse for $9 on clearance, a cardigan for $8 and a blouse for $15! I love it. I think that the purse is my favorite out of all the stuff.

Ok, the break up.

Yesterday was beautiful, perfect to go snowboarding. It wasn't too windy but the snow was a little icy. There is a lack of snow also which is very sad.

(Sorry I had to stop the Percocet that I was taking was horrible but now I am so much better!)

We had about an hour left and I WAS enjoying myself as I headed down the hill. BUT I hit an icy spot and fell on my butt it was bad enough to bring tears to my eyes and to audibly say Ouch . . .I knew something was wrong as I got up and my butt hurt and I was HOPING that it was just bruised (like before) but as I sat on on the the high powered lift I knew that something was definitely wrong. . .Ouch again. This was my last run of the day and I was SO glad. The group was heading down to the lodge and then back down one of the lifts where one of the guys lost his glove off the lift. The trip back down to the lodge was the LONGEST and TOUGHEST trip I have ever taken (at least that is how I felt). The path is almost like alpine skiing but levels out in one spot. I TRIED to say on the high end of the path to keep going but it didn't happen.

I was probably up there in the flat area for a good 10-15 minutes trying to get out. I tried to "wiggle" (going from side to side on a board) and hop (a sort of "walking" whole still attached to the board so you don't have to skate). I refused to skate because that would have me sitting on my butt to reattach my board once I got to a down hill spot. So I managed to crawl across the trail to get to the higher part so that I could get down. I went a little way and then I ended up on the other edge of the trail again. So I crawled back across and then stood and fell on my butt AGAIN! I don't know how many times it happened but this was the last time. I had thought of just laying there on the trail until a ski patrol person came down again but I wasn't sure how long that was going to be and I didn't want to worry the class or our instructor. I said a prayer out loud. "Heavenly Father I have got to get off this mountain and I need your help." No sooner had I said that, then I got up and managed to start going down hill.

When I'm tired of boarding I get lazy and don't even switch the positions or anything I just go down the hill toe side first. I slid toe side first all the way down the hill until I met our instructor and one of the guys. The three of us went down to the lodge with and encouraging word from our instructor promising that we were almost there. When I finally made it to the lodge I decided not to go on the last run, but instead go home. I lounged in the snow for about 10 minutes until I decided that it was time to go. Then I got up and rode my board half way to my car (there is a path that you can ride its pretty cool and useful).

When I go to my car I was really slow in getting in and going, but I made it. I sat down and tears came to my eyes again and I began to cry. . .you know the hyperventilation crying that we all experienced as kids? That was me. As soon as I was off the mountain and had cell phone reception I called CC and asked her to buy me a butt doughnut (sadly it didn't do the job). I cried the rest of the way home. I know I made it I just don't know how. It is all a blur.

When I got home, I called CC and we did a 3 way call with mom who told me that I needed to go to the Insta-Care. By that time I was in agreeing. . .no more denial! It hurt so bad to get out of the car!!!!! I showered and made it to insta-care. . .CC drove. I checked in and waited for like 45 minutes. . .I think. Then I got in the back and was there for another 30-45 minutes I think. . .Ask CC cause pain makes things worse and I lose track of time. ( I do have to say that I wasn't happy that CC told mom, cause I was going to "take care of it and be a big girl" but instead I was a big baby. I was in the examroom FOREVER waiting for the doctor to come see me. Dr. C told me that it was the same treatment if I had bruised or broke my coccyx. . .(tail bone) and that if I had insurance I could get an xray. I told him that I wanted one and was covered by insurance so he sent his nurse to take me to the xray room.

The lady there was really nice (she was older, like she could have been my mom) but she asked me when I had my last period. . .which was in December. . .(I've been stressed and such. . .so to skip a month is normal for me). We had to find out of Dr. C would let me have them done or make me pee in a cup. . .(I had to wait 15 minutes to find out and I could have done it in that time). I told the lady that I wasn't sexually active. . .hmm. . .you wanna see my temple recommend? :D She believed me, but since people are dishonest & sue happy I had to take one. Ok. . .so once I peed and the xrays were taken I went back to re-dress myself and wait for the doc to show me my ugly flabby mid area in the form of a xray. . .so this might be TMI but you could see EVERYTHING like my flabby outline and hairy parts and such. . .kind of disturbing and EMBARRASSING since the viewing machine is in the HALL!!!!! There were 2 views one straight on (the embarrassing one) and then a side view. . .not so bad as the first. He showed me what looked like the end of my tailbone and then said "You would think that this is the end of your coccyx," (I thought I was out of the clear and free to go. . .but it wouldn't be so) "But you see this over here? this is really the end of your tailbone." OUCH!!!! Not only was it broken but it is"over here" "lodged"(not sure if it can move or will stay put) in my butt! (P, a co-worker is worried about it puncturing my uterus and maiming my child making abilities.) I think I know which side it is in because I hurt more on one side than the other. The doc gave me a prescription for percocet because lortab makes me loopy.

Percocet is ten times WORSE than lortab. . .I would rather be loopy than sweat and feel weird and sick and dizzy and out of it and such. So on Sunday I I discovered just HOW bad it was. I had taken it on Saturday but Sunday I was awake while taking it. Hence the reason why I had to stop writing when my mom was sewing my butt pillow (which is now basically flat).

Now I am on hypernicum (St. John's Wart) that is suppose to help quicken healing to nerve endings and also named especially for tail bone damage and Ibuprofen for pain.

So I guess that is it. . .Any question?

Rough courtship leaves polar bear all shook up

Ok, so, I just found this and although it is sad I could not help but giggle at one line! Aparently at zoos, or at least the Memphis Zoo there is such a thing as a "mammal curator." This is funny to me since I really really really wouldn't mind working in a museum and am in that field. Come on a Mammal curator?

I can imagine a conversation going:
"Hello, my name is Bob, what's yours?"
"Wendy. Nice to meet you Bob. What do you do for a living?"
"Oh, well, I am an animal curator."
"Oh really? You work at a natural history museum then? Where?"
"No, actually, I work at the Memphis Zoo."
(Enter the bewilderment of a blond Wendy) "How do you get the animals to stay where you tell them to in the position you tell them?"

Yes, can you tell I'm on percocet this morning? It probably affects me like loratabs do. Loopy, slow but dang funny.

I will write later about my fanny fracture this afternoon I promise!

I should be in bed but I'm not quite ready yet.

The great circle route isn't such a mystery. Liza I took notes so that I an COMPLETELY explain it to you tomorrow. Once you have all the correct things to do it and know how to plug it all in it works. I'm happier now. I totally understand how to do it which is WONDERFUL.

My English class today was horrible. Anyway that was it. I'm like yeah, done and don't know what to say.

Today was interesting and I learned a lot. "That's all."

Great Circle Route Formula+My math skills=Headache

Yes, the Great Circle Route Formula is a PAIN! I am not mathematically inclined but I do have common sense. . .I also have an assignment due tomorrow that is on the great circle route formula and calculating it. Liza worked it through and couldn't get it and then showed me how far she has gotten. . . then I took it and went to the math lab on campus and tried to figure it out but it didn't work. My answer is not the same as anything that I have found from credible sites on the internet like a great circle calculator that is used by the Marines. If I didn't have to have the class I wouldn't *CURSES geography*! So right now I am going to go on and do some of my other geography homework that doesn't use the four letter M word!!! I have e-mailed my teacher and asked if I can meet her tomorrow before class. I'm hoping she will answer.

I have no desire to do my other homework and hate the fact that I have all of this stuff to do. Oh yeah, and if it isn't hard enough I also have to have a globe to do part of it. . .hopefully the library has one cause I don't. . ."Here let me pull it out of my pocket and use it for my assignment!!!!!!!!"

AND my room is very messy it is BUGGIN' me like no other and I need to practice but I feel like vomiting because I ate Honey nut cheerios and they were too sweet. . .blasted sugar. . .I know you wanted to know that didn't you!
I hate it when I try and do good things for my body but things go wrong because I sometimes don't think and screw it up or take upon myself momentary pleasures like eating a brownie or going to get Chinese and then pay for it later. GAH!!!!! Ok back to the regularly scheduled program. As you were.

Being sick is HORRIBLE

Yes, even thought the inversion is going away (YE HAW!) I am still coughing and sometimes stuff comes up (icky). I went to my walking for fitness class and the instructor put me on a bike again. . .not my favorite but better than running/walking stairs. Anyway, bike. . .I could get my heart rate up to 130 but it wouldn't go up any higher. I was having a hard time breathing too. I got off the bike after 15 minutes and to my dismay the instructor told me I looked pale and asked if I was going to pass out. I wasn't but I hate not getting better. I am about to go fill the perscription for antibiotics. . .but I don't want to, I don't think it is going to help. I went to the store today and got some vicks vapor rub and plan to start using it as soon as I get home. I also picked up some alka seltser cold and sinus and am going to ditch the one decongestant for this one. The other one doesn't seem to be helping and a friend suggested this one.

I am NOT going to go to my class tonight because what good is it if I feel worse? Well. . .I am going but only to turn in my assignment and get the next one because there is no late work accepted. What good am I if I am not learning a thing and feel like passing out on the floor?

Sleep is a good thing!!!!!!! I know it will help me and also if I just rest. On top of that I think I pulled a muscle or my underwire is bugging me. . .I want to rip off my bra!!!!!! (TMI I know) Any time I lift something it complains badly. Other than that everything is fine.